I think panic attacks differ slightly in people, but for me it was always a complete, utter, and total sense of despair and fear that nothing was ok, would ever be ok again, combined with hyperventilating, hysterical sobbing, and ridiculously high heart rate and blood pressure. Nasty stuff. I used to think I had severe anxiety and mild depression (for a while they even diagnosed me as bipolar II...) but in retrospect I think it was really just all the drinking, combined with an erratic lifestyle, sleep schedule, and crapping eating and exercising habits. Now that my life is much more stable and I am healthier in general, I haven't had a panic attack in months. And now that I don't drink nearly as much as before, my hangovers are mostly physical, not psychological (SUCH a relief). I generally feel astoundingly sane and happy most days since starting TSM. It's great!
_________________ TSM, second year. Attempting to keep my drinks below 3 for each session, and below 10 for the week.
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