Yesterday was an interesting day for me. I went to the MD and had my prescription renewed. This put me into my 5th week plus a couple of days.

The wife and I went for a ride on the bike and I stopped at a liquor store on the way home and bought a half gallon of tequila. We got home around 6:30 PM. I thought I wouldn't mind having a few shot of tequila so I took my 50 mg of Naltrexone.

My girls came home and we decided to watch the Dark Knight. Though I was losing the desire to drink, I felt compelled drink to since I had already took the Naltrexone. And therein lies the paradox. Naltrexone works by taking Naltrexone and drinking. No drinking - no extinction. It was now well over an hour and drinking was legal.

I went into the kitchen and poured myself a double-shot(standard for me) of tequila. I came back into the family room and watched the movie. After an hour, I took my first sip and it didn't taste good. Now I used to experience that phenomena when I was on a terrible hang-over but that was not the case. The tequila just seemed to have lost its attraction. I did manage to finish the glass and being the good addict I am, I returned to the kitchen and got a refill.

The movie ended with the joker dangling in space (I can relate) and my wife said she was going to bed. I told her to wait and I picked up the glass with the intention of downing it. I put it to my lips but just couldn’t do it. I went into the kitchen and tried to pour it back into the bottle but with that little plastic thing they put in the spout, it is as easy as putting toothpaste back in the tube. I resigned to pouring down the sink drain.

I went to bed, made love to the wife, slept like a baby and woke up feeling great. All morning I have been thinking about the “change” I had underwent the night before. This is atypical behavior for me unless:
1. I am in one of those remorseful states and want to rid the house of alcohol forever and ever. (haven't done that for decades)
2. I am painfully hungover where the smell of alcohol makes me want to puke. Even then, I can usually get past this after a drink or two.
Neither was in effect.

If you had been reading Eskapa’s book, you would see this is Julia’s testimony on page 140, where she takes Naltrexone, opens a bottle of Vodka and goes into the playroom to drink and clean. After a few hours, she discovered she cleaned the room but never opened the bottle. That was a turning point in her therapy where she first started witnessing Naltrexone was working for her.

Maybe I am there.

I love it! Great day for you - cheers!

SR, you're catching the first glimpses of what's in store. That's terrific!

That said... You're going to backslide. Make no mistake, you'll slip up in the near future. No worries, it's part of the process. Just keep on keepin' on and you'll get there. From what I'm seeing, the process is a sloooooow (almost agonizingly so) thing. Chip, chip, chip... soon there will be nothing left.

Thanks for the guidance. I told my wife just that I doubt very much that this journey will be linear. Few directioins are. And to prove a point, I did drink 4 shot of tequilla and 1 beer last night. But is I take the big snap-shot look at the all, I am faring far better than before Sinclair.

And you want to know the biggest difference?
NOW THERE IS HOPE WHERE BEFORE THERE WAS ONLY DISPAIR!

Great to hear !!! Really truly great. I have been happier and healthier for months and I am looking forward to the time of many more people who are there. Can someone tell me where we post questions for Dr Eskapa? Thanks

Thanks Potato.

There is a topic called Sinclair Method Questions. I don't know how often he checks in but RV probably does.

Potato - I created an area where you can post questions to Dr. Eskapa. Questions postedthere are going to be left for him to answer.

If you want answers from the rest of us, post in the section called "Sinclair Method Questions".

Got it! Thanks.

SR- that is fantastic- I am only on day 7, but when I open beer number 3, that in the past has always been the start of the slide down the slippery slope for me- (number 3 usually seems to set of the accelerator you have described in previous posts) I just cannot stand the taste- well that is not actually true, it doesn't taste of anything much, just kind of watery, but I am trying to drink it and making dreadful grimacing faces while doing so- it is revolting!

It is really odd. It began around day 4- I nearly didn't open number 3 last night, because I KNEW it would revolt me, but I did open it anyway (because it was there, and like the good addict I am...) and sure enough I threw it away, almost full, five minutes later. Beer number one tastes fine, number two is not so good, but number three is just UNDRINKABLE. Is that how the tequila was for you?

It is so encouraging to pop into this forum and read about the progress being made. Springrider, I can so relate to your sentiments regarding the fact that where there was only despair, there is now HOPE. I don't think anyone who does not suffer from addiction can understand just how discouraging it is to be unable to gain control of a destructive behavior. And while many people judge those of us who drink. . .no one judges us more harshly than we do ourselves.

I'm so glad to be getting off this roller coaster of drinking to excess, and hating to drink to excess. What has me equally excited, though, is that I've been speaking freely about this to my drinking friends (and relatives), and they're beginning to listen. One good friend, who has never admitted to having a problem, took me aside and asked me to write down the name of the drug - for a 'friend' of hers. How wonderful that Dr. Sinclair, and Mr. Eskapa, are opening prison doors to set so many captives free. God bless them!