Server, your story is super inspirational to me. And I was feeling down for a bit because I felt like a lot of numbers on this board are so low (in terms of units) and mine, although starting out lower than some, are kind of staying the same, but then I saw that I was a good, oh, 20 weeks behind you Made me feel better and reinforced, once again, the idea that TSM takes longer than 3-4 months for most!
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Server,

It is inspirational to read your posts and see how you're doing. It definitely helps to see others' numbers dropping after many weeks. I feel good about where I am but look forward to 10-20 more weeks out.

Hi there,

Thanks for the kind words. Don't get down on yourselves. I remember how I felt when I reached 2 AF days before Christmas, and then spiked back up and could not have an AF day for weeks on end. I started thinking "what if this is it, what if I am one of those who don't respond or never get better". I tried to just stop obsessing about what may or may not happen in the future and instead focus on the day I am in and how I function in that day. The days flew by and only when I looked at my long term trends did I see that things were dropping. Forcing an AF day again was huge for me, a breakthrough and nothing has been the same since. I work everyday to stay in the present. Will I have a drink in a week? A month? A year? Never? I have to let the future take care of itself. Today I don't feel like a drink. I am focusing on feeling better, taking vitamins to supplement and fix nutritional deficiencies I may have subjected my body to over the years. I am listening to my body. If I'm tired, I take a nap. I'm back to reading voraciously. All things I did not, and could not do while drinking. I know that each of us wants control over AL forever, but in the end, we have to deal with each day as it comes. I wish you all the best of luck and I look forward to hearing the day when you feel you have gained control over AL, even if it is for just one day. I'll be here rooting for you!

Awesome post Server- Thank you!!!