I've been debating posting here for a while, but when I went to update my signature I ran out of room for weekly consumption and had to switch to monthly averages. Weekly consumption looks like this (I'm currently in week 35):
PreTSM: 126 u/wk, 18/day, (0)AF (1 bottle wine=6 units) Wk 1-8: 52(2) 56(2) 58(2) 45(3), 67(2) 54(4) 50(4) 30(3) 9-16: 38(4) 13(6) 0(7) 6(6), 21(4) 34(4) 39(3) 47(2) 17-24: 12(6) 1(6) 0, 2(6), 0, 0, 0, 3(6) 25-32: 0, 1(6), 0, 3(6), 5(5), 0, 0, 2(5) 33-40: 0, 0
One of the reasons why I waited so long is because I was worried about what would happen when I started socializing again which I knew would happen with my recent weight loss. As of 1/24/11 I've lost 62 lbs on the hcg diet (another much criticized method that is also misunderstood, widely misreported in the media, and effective for many who have given up hope for successful weight loss). I am just now starting to feel and look like my old self and with the return of my social life comes being out in bars and other situations where alcohol is part of the scene. Well, in the past several weeks I've been in several such situations, and most of the time didn't drink, if I did had one glass of wine with no desire to have more. I also have several bottles of wine & vodka in the cabinet for entertaining, and no desire to open them. Also been in old trigger situations (fight with my boyfriend) where the first reaction PreTSM was to drink 1, 2, 3 bottles of wine alone in my apartment and try to numb the sadness, fear, and frustration I felt. As much as alcohol was ruling and destroying my life a year ago, it is just so much not a part of it now. I can't thank Drs. Sinclair & Eskapa enough, and everyone here on this forum for their immeasurably significant contribution to my success with TSM. As you can see from my numbers I was one of the heaviest drinkers ever on here. I also was on the forum obsessively in my the first several months and I know that made a big difference in how well I responded to both NAL and TSM. For those of you just starting out, do not underestimate the power of this virtual community. For those of you struggling, please know there is hope. It wasn't all roses for me from the beginning. I felt I "regressed" to drinking a lot after an initial great response to NAL and the emotional roller coaster cannot even be described, it just has to be lived through to understand. But ultimately I think for most who stick with it, this is the game changer when it comes to alcohol and no longer abusing it. I will continue to update and post, I spend more time lurking these days as I try to keep up with the peeps who started with me and there are so many new folks here (which is great). But let me shout it from the rooftops that TSM cured me!
_________________ PreTSM: 126 u/wk, 18/day, (0)AF (1 bottle wine=6 units) Wks 1-8: 52(2) 56(2) 58(2) 45(3), 67(2) 54(4) 50(4) 30(3) Weekly Averages: Month#3: 14(5); Month#4: 35(3); Month#5: 3(6); Month#6: 1(6); Month#7: 1(6); Month#8: 1(6) Wks 33-40: 0, 0
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