Hi HG

I know you can do it! Tipping out bad tasting wine is a good start. I've continued drinking despite the taste in the past, just wanting the effect.
My fingers & toes are crossed for you.

Cheers
Sticky

Good luck HG! Keep up the great progress. I had the same thing happen regarding the bad tasting wine last week. For the first time I experienced the change in taste that others have talked about. I drank it anyways though. It was with brand that I normally don't buy, but will not be buying again!

Tipping out the wine and not getting more is an excellent achievement. How do you feel about that night?

1 bottle pr night is excellent progress from your previous postings. The progress probably seems agonisingly slow, but when you look back through your journal; the improvements are very easy to see. Some highlights:

Pre TSM 60-70 units now you're down to 30. That's absolutely incredible and you should be really proud.

"I also love the fact that when I say goodnight to my family I am no longer slurring my words"

"For the last two nights I have left wine in a glass without much thought"

"Cravings are now so low that I walk into the house after work and get busy doing something and forget to pour wine"

"I am noticing changes in my attitude toward alcohol. I forget about it more often these days than before TSM.

Excellent progress. You'll be at your goal of one glass pr night and then you will feel amazing!

Keep up the good work,

Andy.

Good work HG, I agree with everything Andy said ... except....maybe you'll get down to HALF a glass a night

I totally agree with Andy. One thing I have seen on the board over and over again is our yearning to be completely free of alcohol dependence -- anything less is unsatisfactory. This is understandable. I was complaining after several months that I was not "cured." But I was drinking less than half than before TSM and was no longer blacking out or suffering hangovers. If you had told me in advance that TSM would work like that, I would have been thrilled!

Andy's quotes are spot on. Your life has changed and improved dramatically.

Stay patient, you'll get there.

I just finished week 22. I too am still impatient. I drink way too much when I do drink after going AF for a few days. BUT, I still am way below my pre tsm levels, and I mean WAY below. My wife told me the other night, WHILE I was drinking a little too much, how much better I am to be around, how much her worry has been eased, how much better our life is. I am not satisfied, but there is such an improvement that if I step outside of myself it's really amazing.
Hang in there everyone.
Dave

Indeed, great numbers Dave!!!

Hi HG,
I think that the AF day is a plateau that is so hard to break through. It will happen when you are ready for it to happen. Look at me. I went from thinking "how can I get further? how can I possibly get this AF day?" to just doing it, freaking out, but doing it. Now I've done two weeks in a row with 6 AF days each and this week, I think I'm just going to go AF all week. I honestly don't think about it much anymore. I often find myself checking the clock, thinking, is it time to take my NAL and then realizing that I don't have to take it anymore! I know it feels like it will never happen. That's how I felt. Believe in yourself, in the process, and be patient. It will happen! Frustration is a part of the process I think. Good luck!

Hi HG, thats so close to having an AF its not funny. I agree with you that having an AF day will be a major turning point for you. I found with my week last week that when i didn't drink on the nights I would have normally I didn't miss it at all. I think you will find that as well. Once you know that I think your units will come tumbling down. I know its a frustrating stage where you are at the moment but the end is nigh, we just don't know when. Look forward to hearing about your AF day in the near future, Warren

Wow everyone, thanks for all of the support.

Andy, to answer your question, the wine I was drinking was so distasteful that every sip made me feel like I was going to puke! I was surprised how much I didn't care about the wine once I decided not to get in the car and go get a new bottle of wine. Thank you particularly for your post. Yes, my life has changed dramatically.

After that night I went right back to my nearly one bottle of wine a night. What has been most interesting getting stuck at about one bottle of wine a night now for weeks and weeks is what the Nal is doing. I am noticing a lowered tolerance for wine. 5 units of wine makes me feel a bit more buzzed than it did several weeks ago. That seems to be true if I consume it over 5 hours or over 3 hours. I also notice that I no longer like the feeling of being buzzed at all. This is somewhat hard to explain, but I don't have any desire to get buzzed anymore. That seems to be extinguished. Or maybe a better way to explain it is that the buzz on Nal is very unpleasant and so I have no desire to get buzzed on Nal.

Again, thanks everyone. Yes, I believe I will get there in the end. The extinction is happening and I am still noticing the changes every day even though they are subtle.