"Slowly alcohol just becomes another drink like a soda." --HG

I hope and pray that that is true! You and I are similar in that we like our wine and we like it everyday!
I do not have many AF days. Four in the month of April. Yikes!

Still, I see your great progress and too, you are highly functioning. And that story about the margarita is interesting! That you didn't take Nal before consuming the lime-green, salty-rimmed potion and your brain craved another and another.

Silly brain!

Surely we can tame it!

How nice that you had the opportunity to hang out with your mom, too. And Big D is one of my favorite cities.

I must say, you lead the life kitten!

Have a great weekend,

Ketchikan1

Glad to be of inspirational value or whatnot with my comments
But seriously, it all sounds like good progress. Like many people have said, the numbers are not the only way that TSM is changing our relationship to drinking. It sounds like all the mental pieces are slowly falling together for you, if you can even IMAGINE a scenario where booze might be like soda !!!

So true...so true! When wine becomes like soda....I will be cured. Thanks you all for the kind words. I posted elsewhere that I've been in bed all day with a wicked Nal hangover after consuming only 6 units last night. When I started TSM 6 units was nothing for me and there were no hangovers. Now, Nal gives me a hangover even on 4-5 units. So, my evil friend AL isn't quite soda pop yet!!??

Hi HG

Sorry to hear you ended up in bed all day. I can relate!! Well done on your mini breakthroughs last week, though. That is great to not obsess about getting that first drink and to only have 3 or 4 when out. I tend to get stuck in at home too, especially if hubby is out or everyone has gone to bed. Am going to try and put in a bit more effort to get my units down this week.
I hope your weekend is going well.

Cheers
Sticky

Hi HG, hang in there. I think Nick at some stage talked about adding "doubt" to the TSM formula because it is universal among us. I guess the stage we are at is somewhat like a mountaineer who is only 100 metres off the summit but can't see it for the clouds and has already travelled so very far. Hang in there, wine will turn to soda before you know it!

Wow WJ - What a great analogy. That is exactly how I feel....I'm near the summit but I can't find my way due to the clouds. Once the clouds clear I will make it.

This see saw of wanting wine...not wanting wine....drinking wine...drinking less wine....drinking more wine....IS KIND OF DRIVING ME NUTS! But, so many things have changed that I'm okay with the process no matter how long it takes. Last night for the first time in months I bought a bottle of white wine. I know it makes me drunker, but I did it anyway and I drank the whole thing! I remember snapping at my husband for the first time in months as well and he gave me that look, "You are drunk!" I guess I needed to do that one more time because today I feel like I never want to see another glass of white wine as long as I live. No matter how good it is, it always tastes like syrup and I always turn into a different person! Ugh!

Onward. Hope Sticky and you are having a good week.

Hi HG

How are you? I hope you're not feeling discouraged again as it's unlike you not to post for a week. Just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you....

Sticky

HG, I so hear you on the whole thinking about alcohol all the time driving you nuts. Sometimes (esp before tsm) I used to get so fed up with constantly watching and restraining myself that I would just moan to my bf about how it wasn't fair, how normal people don't think about alcohol this much, why does it have to be so hard,etcetc. But then I started thinking about how this is MY issue, but everyone else has their own issues. It is frustrating, but at least it's something we can control - and not, I dunno, terminal cancer or something like that. One day, hopefully, we won't spend so much time thinking about drinking or not drinking. Here's to hope!
EL

Hi HG, hope you are well. I (like Sticky) have noticed your conspicuous absence. You wrote "so many things have changed that I'm okay with the process no matter how long it takes". That is exactly true. I just wrote something similiar on my thread before I wrote this. I figure it took us many, many years to get to where we are so why grumble about a few more months if thats what it takes. I believe in the process, I know you do too. Overall you are down to about half of what you were drinking, thats progress right? ook forward to hearing from you soon!

Hi Sticky and Warren - I'm still around. Haven't been posting or checking the forum much as nothing really to report. Like Warren I am still stuck at the same numbers. The only change I've noticed is that I drink the same every night.....no ups and downs.

I am still faithfully doing TSM and now realize that this is going to take a lot longer than I had hoped. I'm in it for the long haul though. The extinction is still happening and I have decided to just let that happen without forcing anything. My chair and my wine is becoming less and less appealing and the hours I drink are shortening every day so that is good news.

I hope both of you are doing well.

Special note to Server - You have regained control! I'm sure you aren't ready to shout it to the rooftops yet for fear of jinxing yourself, but what amazing progress you have made in the last few weeks. Good going.