Yeah, I think a month long shot would be tough for me. I did take a nal at noon the other day because I expected to have a beer or two with friends for lunch... funny thing, they all had a beer and a went with an iced tea.... that would never have happened before! It is not to say that i did not think about the beer I could have had a few times. i wish I could say that the little devil that talks to me is gone, but he is not. I was so proud to here myself order the iced tea, but when my iced tea showed up and their three frosty mugs of beer showed up, it was all I could do to not just say "Oh hell, give me one too!"

But I didnt... But that devil kept nagging me... at least five or so times through lunch. It is sad that the guy is still sitting on my shoulder, but just two weeks ago, there is no way I would have been able to make it through with that Iced tea.

Anyhow, I then drank a few later than night between 8-10 pm without taking another Nal. I just wanted to make sure that was okay. It seemed to still be in my system, as I had only a few and was able to stop at my own free will.

Jamie

Thanks for the explanation ... that really helps. It also raises a question for me.

I am 6'4" and weight 255 lbs.... I am currently taking 50mg.... should I be on 100? Hmmmmm. I wish I could find a doctor locally that would take on this journey.

It seems to be working at 50 mg... but it is so early, that even now sometimes I question whether or not it is just in my head or it really works... I am a cup is half full kind of guy, so I say it is working!

But then I ask myself... would it be that much more effective at 100m......Damn!

I assume that you have checked the list on this site of local doctors?

yeah, none in my area....

Hi HG and everyone

Well done HG on your mini breakthrough and keeping it under 50/wk. That is great! If I had been drinking every day prior to TSM I would feel very pleased with that progress. Given my history i couldn't cope with 50 or more a week, but i certainly have done that when relapsing and bingeing and when i was younger. Now my poor body struggles after a night of 12 or 14 drinks and i need to be AF the next day to recover! Also i am 5'5"(or i was - my GP says i have shrunk already!) and only weigh about 113 pds. Am loving the days when i can stop at 1 or 2 or even half a bottle of wine - that is real progress for me.
We are all very fortunate to have discovered TSM.
It is a long weekend in Auckland, NZ and my boys go back to school on Tuesday after 7 weeks' vacation. So it will be back into the usual routine of school, after school activities and working in our businesses. Not that i stopped working in the businesses while the kids were on holiday, but it is a juggling act.

Take care and have a good weekend

Sticky

Hey Sticky - Thanks for the post. Your progress is so great. I am shooting this week for keeping it at 5 units a night which I consider to be a bottle of wine. That would put me at 35 units for the week although I'm already a couple of days into my tracking week with more units than 5 per night so I'll probably be a bit higher than that. Glad to hear you are doing so well.

Have a great weekend. HG

Hi HG

Well done on your progress too! I have to say it hasn't been all easy and I am very good at saying "I'm fine" when I'm not. I have had a couple of arguments with my husband lately and have overreacted to things he says, which is old poor behaviour that has in the past lead to drinking to excess. I know he is stressed with work, but i take his criticisms so personally b/c my self esteem is still non existant at times. Also i work with him so have to listen to the whinges and moans as part of being a supportive partner/company director! Could do without it.

I agree thats TSM is a roller coaster of emotions. This morning i would have said how grateful i was for finding it. Also how things were going so well and after 17 years trying to stay sober i could now drink and how amazing that is. But to be honest there are a couple of days a week where i have drunk too much the night before and feel like s*** the next day. Now that it is back to reality with work and kids at school and lots of driving to & from after school activities, i am starting to have those feelings of whatever i do is not good enough. (Feelings I have had since my childhood and which i now believe are part of my personality and not my parents' fault.)
I said to hubby tonite before i went to my friend's to organise our joint 50th party that it was impossible to keep everyone in our family happy, no matter how hard i tried. Sometimes i wish i only had to worry about myself, which i guess is why i used to vanish for a day or 2 or 3 on end when drunk before TSM.
I wish i could actually meet someone in NZ doing TSM. I am not so comfortable about going to AA now except my home group. Havent been to my other 2 regular meetings over the kids' summer holidays and one of them is now not possible with my older son's ice skating lessons.
In some ways i feel isolated (not good for an alcoholic as we tend to isolate) as TSM is almost unheard of in NZ and i have to avoid talking about it in or after meetings.
Anyway, I am being very negative tonight, so sorry about that. I guess it is good to vent.
Thanks again for everyone's support.

Cheers
Sticky

Hi Sticky - You are not alone. We are here for you. I so relate to what you posted. I too am still getting drunk more than I want and making a complete ass of myself. Since your post was honest and forthright I want to tell you what I did on Saturday night. My 16 y/o daughter had a dance to go to at high school....the kind where the girls dress way up. She had 5 of her friends over to get dressed with her...the make-up, nail polish...giggling, etc. I was soooo excited for her, but what did I do.....I got drunk because it was Saturday night and that is what I do. The part that I'm ashamed of is that I drove some of her friends to the dance at 9:00 at night after drinking a bottle of wine! Damn, I just hated myself the next morning, and so did my husband. He drove too as there were too many kids for just one car, but of course, he was sober.

All I know is that when I get on this forum and I see posts like Mario, MA and yours today.....I have hope. I want to be free of this beast. So, Sticky, your post really helped me because I know there are others besides me dealing with this awful yucky ugly disease we have. So, keep posting. This is the right place to vent.

HG

HG--I litterally have tears in my eyes as I write this because I was thinking of YOU when I was having my first AF day in decades and how you would say "good Job". You can do it! I can do it! Keep it up! Lets all support each other and not be like like the negative sites.

I am totally humbled that my drunk ass could possilby inspire hope in anyone. Proof positive that TSM can work and that we need to keep inspiring each other!