before start taking naltrexone
I always finished my drinking paralytic
I even don't remember how much I was drinking - just all that was at home
and then go to night-shop or petrol station...

now - on my second day with naltrexone
yesterday 5 beers - but till five hours!

today - 4 beers
and feeling of calm and peace
absolutely no craving for more

just going to sleep
and wish you good day/night

Welcome Exerb! Great to have you on board! Wish more people were open to other methods of healing. Glad to hear you are doing well. Remember to come here if you need reassurance or just need to get something off your' chest. Someone is always here to listen. Again, my best to you!!
JANE

thanks a lot for warm greeting
I really appreciate it - have someone to tell honestly about my struggles
especially when you must try to show that everything is ok...

Hi from me too, xerb and welcome - please keep in touch as we all know how you feel. And especially when others can't see what your problem is. When I finally broke down and told my doctor I was an alcoholic he looked at me as if I was crazy, or at least exagerating! I felt horrible enough having to crawl in there and tell him - then I had to CONVINCE him!!!! And then he gave me 30 measley Nals and said, "after that you'll have to use will power." Needless to say I never went back.

So hang in there, post as often as you'd like, and read lots of stuff here - it's all good!!

hello
I know what you mean
I think it is partly our guilt (or just the evidence of alcoholism)
when you are an alcoholic - you want to "protect" your drinking
if you admit that you drink too much - you'll loose it
and it is really the last thing you want!
so you have a demon inside
so much suffer and hopelessness
and nobody knows about it...
I think my wife would be shocked reading this

3rd day on nal - 3,5 beers
hardly no craving
just a habit
sometimes I catch myself on thinking that I "should" drink more and faster

during a day sometimes I feel a little lack of coordination (I hope it'll drop away)
mood - flat but stable - no emotional exhaustion (like it always used to be)

second week on nal
the panic has come...
when friday came - my usual heavy drinking day - I felt terrible
I had some handshakes and obsessive thougts about alcohol
and terrific thoughts - no to take the pill
why should I take it? if I take it I couldn't get drunk!
hopefully I followed the rule - first nal - then drink
and then - a miracle - no obsessive thougts, no heavy drinking
just few drinks - despite I was on a party

Good job Xerb!

thanks