Hi Path,
I don't know but, maybe being a binger now instead of a daily might help?? I don't know the answer to that. All I know is the benz's MUST go. I believe I may be more successful without them. Not looking forward to the after-effects, but they have to go. I do not really need them anymore. Sometimes I thought it was anxiety I was experiencing when it was probably just day to day life. Benzo's & AL offered an escape. An escape I no longer want or neede.
Thank you for your kind respond.
I'll keep ya'll updated.
ALWAYS, JANE

Overdid it a bit last night. 4 wines. I know you're thinking 4 wines? Not bad. True but since tsm 3 is enough to give me lots of trouble in the morning. Really, I can't believe how little it takes to get me hammered now. Like, I'd have 2 bottles of wine sometimes & wouldn't feel half as drunk as I do now on 3-4 glasses. Spose that's good results. When I tackle my benzo issue I expect to see results even more pronounced.
ALWAYS, JANE

Good luck Jane,

Sounds like you are really tackling a lot at once, but that is a sign you are ready to get back to basics enjoying life.

We are all behind you. Dont give up the fight.

PacMan

Thank you PacMan. Iam moving forward, it's just tough when you feel like it's going nowhere sometimes but looking back over the baby steps, there really is progress. Patience was never a strong point for me. Will learn it one way or another.
Appreciate You, JANE

Tomorrow will be 4 days AL. Tuesday may prove different. Husband is of. Trigger. At this stage in my game, I REALLY believe almost ALL my problems with AL are coming from many years of HABIT Lots of it is psychological for me now. I am able to control myself in social sits. now, & don't stop for more at store after dinner out, only when I've had 3 or 4 glasses I sometimes get the craving for more. But not all the time like before. Can't remember the last time I bought a bottle to drink alone just for the "lark" of it. Been getting more involved in reading some educational books instead of junk. I guess what I want to say is: it's working I still carry the fear at certain times but all in all pretty good. Not gonna get cocky yet....not the right time And trying to put just a "little" more effort in is a good thing.
Will update soon.
ALWAYS, JANE

This made me laugh, because I got cocky about 5 weeks ago when my units were way down for a few weeks. Then I had one of those dreaded spikes. So much for being cocky.

I am so glad to hear you feel its working! That is wonderful! And I hear you on the habit thing. I am struggling with the same thing. Although the alcohol obsession is gone and the desire is way down, I often end up drinking simply out of habit. I think I am at the point where I need to find other things to fill my time.

What's the latest with the benzos? Have you started tapering off yet? I hope that goes as smoothly as possible for you.

Hugs,
YG

Hi YG! Will be starting to taper tomorrow. Dr. gave me Elavil 2 at night & Clonidine 3 x a day. We shall see. They have to go. However, remember when I had a woodtick buried in my back for a week? Dr. took it out & put me on preventative anti-biotic. It has been almost 3 weeks since & my Husband looked at it this AM because it was aggravating me. Apparently, she (Dr) did not remove the entire varmint! There's a dark spot where it was removed & it looks like part of the bastard is still in there! Freaking me out! How could anybody be so stupid???
If it ain't one thing, it's another, if it ain't another, it's the one thing. Sorry...some Dr's really piss me off. Now I have to get my GP tomorrow.
So, as far as the cocky part goes...it just has to feel right. And for a specific amount of time. Then I will be cocky as HELL!!!

Right Back At Ya With Hugs
JANE

Oh, Jane, what an awful feeling! That must make your skin crawl, literally! Well, at least you know when the rest if it was removed, it was alive. So presumably, whatever is still there is not. Right? Still, yucky!

Hang in there and good luck with the tapering, my friend!

Hugs, YG

My wife was trying to pull one outta me once and didn't get it all. The area swelled up and hurt for a while, then went down but left a little knot that's still there a couple of years later. 'Course, given how much I was drinking at the time, I'm surprised the little bastard didn't get drunk on my blood and just fall off. I hate those bloodsucking parasites. And for once I'm not just talking about Congress.

Please get it taken care of Jane! One of my best friends got lyme disease from one of those little suckers and it really impacted her life for a couple of years-make sure they run all of the tests. We all need you here on this site motivating us so you're not allowed to get sick