Hey Happy, My heart bleeds for you right now. I'm sorry to hear that you believe you've slid back. I just have to say, "Please, stay with us a while longer?" Look how "Happy" you were in previous post! If you felt that way then, you CAN get it back! You CAN! You know you CAN. Someone's always here to pick you up when you fall. That's what we're all about here! Lean on someone, start talking & communicating with us again, please?
WE CARE, WE REALLY DO
ALWAYS, JANE

BTW,If your' like most of us, no doubt you tried any & everything to make it work. Nothing helped right? At least you saw what this program can do for you. You are proof positive it DOES WORK! I feel your' dissapointment, tho. I too, tried everything conceivable. I once spent $4000 on a program guaranteed to work. A woman in Boston who was extemely successful in treating alcoholism. Lots & lots of happy campers. She has even treated members of the Royal Fakily, Drew Barrymore, Billy Joel, to name a few. After my 3 consecutive visits I was deemed "cured". What an amazing feeling!! However, I was clean & sober for almost 1yr. Then, guess what? I was visiting Relatives on Marthas Vineyard when the craving AGAIN reared it's ugly head! And guess what? you guessed it. I called their office & they wouldn't make good on thier guarantee! So, I was out $4000! All I'm saying is this is cheaper, & you know it works. Come Back Please.

Thank you for the support, Jane.

I still believe in TSM and am not giving up -- just need to get my act together again and realize I will likely always need to monitor my intake or I run the potential to spin out of control. And with me, who knows why...I could have new triggers in my life or something, I'm not sure. But it happened once before and I came back, so I'm sure if I push myself a little, I will be back to where I want to be.

Thank you again for all of you that keep this site and the members going strong,

H4O

Bravo, Sweetheart!! I'm glad you came back! I really am.

happy,
thank you for coming back and posting. i am sad to hear of another slip, but heartened that you are sticking with it and are not discouraged. i am curious as to what may have been responsible for the backsliding. if you know why this happened again, could you share the reason with us? seems like being aware of all possible pitfalls along this bumpy road is a good idea and we could benefit from hearing about your experiences, even the difficult ones. i hope to see you here often, as jane said we are all here to support one another. lean on us.
thanks so much,
path

Happy,

I'm so sorry you've slipped backwards and you are feeling bad . What a change from your previous post. It is so helpful for all of us to learn from your experience and not take the good stuff for granted. There a quite a few new folks who would love to offer support as you find your way back. I'm not sure this would be doable for me without the support when things get tough. Keep posting and let us know how things go!! Btdt

Thank you again everyone. I was able to AF last night -- it was actually no problem since I was so down on myself and because I posted here. Feeling much better today and hopeful.

I've been thinking a lot about why I slipped backwards again. I really don't know, but maybe I have been cheating on the 1 hour before taking the pill -- I know I chew my pill a lot when we have wine with dinner and I only allow 15 minutes to 1/2 hour before we sit down to eat. That very well could be it -- literally had not thought of that until path asked -- I had just assumed the pill stopped working because I was drinking through any cut off switch I had before...like a self-destructive type of thing. I also started drinking white wine with dinner over the summer with hubby -- my typical pattern is red wine after the kids go to bed. So - maybe both of those factors have messed up my wiring again.

It's very, very, very easy to forget you have a problem once you are 'cured'. You really do feel normal and feel like 'oh, yeah, let's have some wine with dinner...hold on I need to just pop that old pill real quick for old times sake and I'm good to go.' Very well could have been my own doing by not waiting enough time. I'm just not sure as there really is no Doctor for me to talk this over with.

I'm feeling much more hopeful today. No desire to drink at the moment, so that is good, and I know my life will turn back around again...and maybe this time I really, really learned my lesson!

Thank you again for the support!

~H4O

Hey Honey, Ithink you just answered your own question. Kind of like an ah ha moment! That's great! I'm no Sylvia Browne but I suspect your' right. I imagine after believing that your cured, it would be sooo easy to forget that little bennie that keeps the demon away. Wipe the slate clean. Forget it ever happened. Do not ever look back. Only push forward, & take bennie. He loves you.
ALWAYS here for you, JANE

H4O - it was great to read your recent posts - you and all the other old timers (?) were so inspiring to me when I first started TSM a year ago.

You know you are so right - we've got to work the program, to quote the old AA gang. How crazy is it to think that we don't have to be viligent!

To save money, I had started to take .25 Nal instead of the usual .50 and I could feel myself slipping too. It was just not enough. Once I get my supply next week and if I do decide to take a drink I'm giving myself the fully whammy!!

I guess your circumstances have changed with your computer access but I hope you'll try to post and let us know how you are doing. Maybe that's it for you: that you need to go back to the beginning and start over. You know it works, and you know if you pay attention to what you are doing it will work again. Maybe third time is the charm? I certainly wish you all good things. Don't give up!!

I totally think not waiting the hour is what did it. I mean, those first few drinks were before the Nal got into your system, so you reinforced the drinking habit again probably. I hope you get back on track and I'm glad to see you back here. let us know how it goes.