your graph is so inspiring (as are you) i too am a health nut and am looking forward to turning my body back into a vessel for positive energy and goodness, instead of the vessel for alcohol & negativity it had become

Dang (yoga)girl - you are looking healthier At least your graph looks GOOD.

It is really hard to look back and dwell on our "mistakes" but this is the nature of the addiction. I completely understand attending a function then coming home and continuing - again, the addiction. You've made such good progress and continue to inspire those of us a few weeks behind. Please don't beat yourself up for what you haven't done. Acknowledge, what you are doing and what you have to look forward to. Your baby is only 4 years old. Trust me there is so much more yet to come. You are doing the best thing by sticking to TSM.

Keep posting - the ups and downs. It helps keep me plugging along too. BTDT

CONGRATS to your success!!

Please explain why you went up to 75 and 100 mg and how it helps?

XX

Thanks, everyone! I am feeling great this week, AF since that charity event on Sunday. I was at the grocery store yesterday and glanced at the liquor store next door. I had that little "hmmm, do I want some wine?" thought, and immediately realized "no, actually wine sounds icky." Unbelievable. I hope this lasts, I don't want to get too optimisitic too soon. But for now, I will enjoy this new control over (bordering on aversion to) alcohol.

Inspired, the reason increased my dosage was simply that my doctor told me to. I am fortunate to have found a doctor who has worked with many TSM patients. She said several of her patients have "turned the corner" when they increased to 75mg or 100mg. I was tolerating the lower doses well, so we decided to keep going. She tests my liver function every month, to make sure the higher dose isn't hurting me.

I also looked back at MinneapolisNick's log. He seemed to be frustrated, wondering if TSM would work for him, because it took longer than the 3-4 months stated as typical in the book. He also made big progress when he increased to 100mg. I know Joe12Pack just increased to 100mg, so I am anxiously waiting to see if that dose gets him to closer to feeling cured.

Good luck ... I am watching everyone's progress with interest, hoping this is the real cure for all of us!!

YG

THANKS yoga girl!

XX

Yoga. more great news! Question: I looked through Nick's thread. i don't see anything about 100mg. do you happen to remember what page it was on or around? it's a long thread. I'm having a good week so far on 100mg.

Oops, I was wrong about minneapolisnick, he was actually saying he was having bad SEs at 50mg and wanted to reduce to 25mg. Sorry about that!

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Joe, glad to hear you are having a good week at 100mg!

yogagirl,
enjoy the aversion to alcohol or whatever you want to call it. so glad you are having such spectacular success. thanks for the support. no af days for me yet. i am watching closely to make sure i am aware of the first inklings that i am ready.
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I am getting closer and closer to saying that TSM worked for me. I need more time, many more months of feeling like I do now to be sure, but some incredible things are happening.

Here's the latest: I went out for sushi last night with my husband and kids. I got a glass of wine with dinner, as usual. Also as usual, I ordered a second glass before I was done with the first. In the past, I have always wanted to make sure I could get AT LEAST 2 glasses down before the end of dinner. This time, I could barely finish the second glass, I literally had to force myself to drink the second glass (out of guilt, I paid for it, after alll ... still conditioned to never leave a half full glass!)

The we went to Dairy Queen, as we always do after sushi (we did it once, now the kids expect it every time. ) This is when I would normally start scheming. I would be thinking "Now, what do I have at home? Is there any wine, if so is there enough? If not, how much vodka? Anything decent to mix with vodka? Hmmm, maybe while they get ice cream, I'll go over to the liquor store ...." This time, I had NO INTEREST WHATSOVER in more. None. We got home, put the kids to bed and fell asleep early.

I have been up every morning this week at 6am, which was unheard of before. I have been making good breakfasts and having nice, peaceful, unrushed mornings with my kids. I am finally getting control of the chaos of my life and getting things done. I have been exercising and going to yoga classes. I think the mental fog caused by alcohol is finally clearing, and life suddenly seems so much easier.

I'll say it again. This is truly, nothing short of a miracle. I hope this is a long term result ... now I just have to live life and wait and see.

YG, this is a wonderful for you. Thanks for sharing that. It's got to feel great to see all these changes. How much time have we all wasted because of alcohol? I take my kids to dinner every Wednesday night and in the past I always drank 2 glasses of wine with dinner. I haven't done it once since I started TSM. The urgency and anxiety is not there anymore. I can wait until later so I can be fully present for them. Enjoy your new productivity and keep posting.