Keep marching! We'll get there one way or another together.

Chin up its probably a glitch. I know ive often had suspicions about the online meds. Maybe its a spot of up regulation (if thats what its called). You've been doing so well i know it can be disappointing.

Actually to clarify, I thought I had posted this but forgot.

Lately, maybe for about 6 weeks Ive been slightly crushing my nal and I thought that it did make a difference. The other thing on Sunday was I drank the glass of champaign without taking a tab. I didnt take any notice of it as it was before lunch (I rarely drink before night time) and I thought I was still fully covered from the night before. I came home from the spa and took a nal but went out directly to meet friends for lunch and definatly had the next glass of wine within the hour. Ive been talking to DOMD about it on another site and he had the same experience once when he didnt wait the full hour. So Im not going to panic that tsm is in doubt but its a damned good reminder that the rules are not to be messed with. Its easy to forget that or to get a little complacent as the months go by. Lately I ve been taking only a half a tab on Sunday nights because I would only drink one or two but Im going to quit doing that now too. I dont want the benifits of nal being eroded by my wanting to stretch out my meds. Lesson learned!

Ive been reading a lot of posts lately with regard to tsm and the cure. Im not too sure that its real benificial to concentrate totally on getting to THE cure. Surely any possitive benifits of nal are just as important. I know that when I was activly alcoholically drinking if I thought I could have a night of what I would now consider high consumption, maybe 5 or 6 drinks, remember everything have pretty good control and no violent hangover I would have traveled accross the world for a tab that would enable me to drink like that. Im no where near cured as in I still have cravings and I still drink too much sometimes BUT im nowhere near where I was which was drink to black out every single time, wake full of anxiety hungover guilty and sweating, 3 hours later plotting and planning how I was going to do the same thing all over again. Full cure or not this life is just a pure miracle for me. If a full cure comes great but at least now alcoholism is no longer the full master in my life and Im in control 80% of the time. This I can deal with.

Have a great weekend everyone.

Mario; Your latest update made a lot of sense to me.

There certainly is anecdotal evidence on this forum that there are shades of "cure". There are some that drink far less, but still "too much". There are even some that still drink the same amount, but don't loss control (something that I cannot truly understand). And of course there are some that drop to some level, then level off at a plateau, where it never gets any lower and it's mostly in the moderate region. Of course, there are those "text-book cases" where TSM never stops having a continued effect and it erodes away all desire for AL (like me, and I'm not sure if I'm happy about the totality of that effect).

If there's any positive affect that TSM provides, then it is successful. If people want/need more, then they can try other methods, but I see no reason why they would ever drink again without it. I see no downside.

Bob

Last night was one of those nights where I could have drank a river. Pretty stressed at work, organizing a huge event that we could lose our shirts on and it hasnt been going well. Today is Dday, so I decided to drink last night even though I knew I shouldnt be hungover today. After 4 glasses though I decided that I should stop even though I wanted more. It was surprisingly easy and I went to bed. Woke this morning happy that I felt good.
Cant promise anything for tonight though when this thing is all over.

Good luck, Mario! Hope the event goes well!

I love that feeling! Amazing isn't it? In our race to the cure, I think sometimes we take nights/next mornings like these for granted

Event day went okish, not as well as we had hoped but not as badly as we feared- lesson learned we wont be trying this again especially not in this current economic climate- the money just doesnt seem to be out there for non essentials. Anyway to tsm, Im quite happy with progress- usually have at least 4 days al free, I find that the first night I drink on nal I drink maybe up to 8-10 units but then the next night its less about 4-6 and the third night I either dont bother or I force one or two drinks down. Im quite happy with that. no hangovers or blackouts Im alot more carefull now wioth taking my nal and if I think there is any decent possability that I will drink I take it at least two hours beforehand.It may be just in my mind but it seems to be working better. This past Friday night when I would usually drink at least 4, I just had two drinks and was done. Its something Im going to keep an eye on.

Had a lovely evening this evening thanks to nal. I dont normally drink on Monday but Hubby was off and we were busy shopping and doing garden stuff with the result that we decided to go out for diner. Sister came with us and we ordered a bottle of wine which we shared. Prior to nal right now I would be trying to figure a way of getting more alcohol into me, in fact I would have started plotting as soon as I ordered the first drink, but no, Im home and theres alcohol in the house and Im in bed with a cup of tea.

I may not be cured but Ill take this and run quite happily.