I really haven't seen much progress in terms of the numbers. I think that before I went on Nal I did not know how much I was drinking, so I think I'm drinking about as much as I was then. However, I don't have the same bloody-minded NEED to have that first drink, or that last drink. It's just that if it's around, and I'm still awake, a drink seems like a good idea. But not a necessity.
Yesterday I completely forgot to take my pill before going to the pub, where I had 2 pints of a fairly strong IPA. When I left I realized I hadn't taken the Nal and I thought, well that's odd, it didn't feel any different, I didn't get a mad buzz or go off the deep end. So maybe I'm in that 10-15% where Nal doesn't work because it's not endorphins that are primarily involved in the addiction? I hope not. I really hope not.
My husband completely underestimates how much I drink, even when I am drinking right in front of him. He thinks I'm having 3-4 a night when it's more like 7-10 a night. I don't have the heart to tell him he's wrong. I think if he knew how much I was drinking he'd be worried for my health. Hell, I should be worried for my health. But I feel fine. Most of the time. If I pace myself, I don't get hangovers. Had a doozy of one yesterday morning though. When I do get a hangover it's much worse than before I started Nal, or maybe that's my imagination.
Anyway. I keep hoping to work in an AF day here or there but so far it hasn't happened. Last week I was going to do AF Tuesday and Wednesday, and on Monday night my husband wrote beer on the grocery list and complained that we were out of beer again. That had been my plan, to be out of it so I didn't feel tempted to drink any. Oh well.
_________________ Pre-TSM: 40-70 units US/week Month 1: 63, 75, 78, 62 (0 AF) Month 2: 71, 70, 62, 68 (0 AF) Month 3: 59, 63, 53, 62 (0 AF) Month 4: 48, 55, 55, 54 (0 AF) Month 5: 56, 55, 50, 50 (0 AF) Month 6: 55, 60, 52, 60 (0 AF) Month 7: 56, 59, 54, 48 (1 AF)
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