Progress for this week

Friday night 7 drinks-- drunkish but nothing that bothered me.

Saturday night 3 pints of beer

Sunday ordered a glass of wine with lunch and didnt drink it.

So very happy

Content and happy with progress this week

Wednesday night I had 3 glasses of wine to the best of my recollection. friday night I had 4 glasses of malibu probaly 2 unit glasses. Ive never drank malibu before but the thoughts of drinking beer or wine just revolted me YET I still wanted to drink, how weird is that. Saturday night I couldnt abide the idea of drinking so didnt and then last night I had 4 glasses of wine.

Alcohol takes up less and less of my thoughts these days for which Im extremly gratefull.

good stuff! Glad you're doing so well.

Was making beef strogonoff for diner last night and used some of the little bottle of brandy I got for it in the dish and then had an Irish Coffee with what was left. It set off a craving for more which kind of annoyed me as I normally dont drink on Tuesday nights but as it was raining and the craving wasnt that huge I didnt go to the shop for more. It still peed me off a bit that I craved at all as usually now I decide when I drink and I have 3,4 or at the most 5 drinks and Im finished. In fact the 5 drink nights are usually after a 4 night break and as the weekend goes on I drink less and less.

Because the craving annoyed me I was thinking about it this morning and realized that Ive absolutly no right to be annoyed. The differences TSM has made to my life are huge, I rarely crave and I drink about a third of what I would drink if I wasnt on nal. Furthermore I never black out, I never wake up in the early hours which I always did drinking prior to tsm. eventhough I do on occasion get buzzed I still retain that clarity that is so difficult to explain. So all in all I dont know what qualifies as a cure but if I were to continue drinking at the level Im at now with no further decrease I would be happy with what nal has given me. Certainly if somone had showed me one of these current weeks when I was activly drinking alcoholically I would have cried with the want to be here.

Am I cured? No, I still have a ways to go BUT alcohol is mostly under control and the bigest gift of all is that I no longer fear where it will take me. Its lost its all consuming power and Im finally more relaxed about the place alcohol has in my life than Ive been in 10 years. The worry is 90% gone.

Ive noticed though that my addictive personality is now occupying itself with other persuits, namely stashing as many naltraxone tabs as I can ( i have 70 tabs and have ordered more- just to be on the safe side- I find myself counting them once or twice a week and calculating how long they will last) AND drinking coffee. I only ever drank cofee maybe a half dozen times a year and now I wake in the morning and crave it. Still its all better than the mornings I woke hungover yet craving alcohol and plotting nd planning how I was going to get my hands on it.

The human mind can be a strange place to live in- no doubt about it

Thats great news about your progress- sounds like you are well on your way to declaring yourself cured.

I had no sooner posted the above post than I spent the evening craving wine. Hubby came home from work early and I suggested we go for a few drinks last night. I ordered a glass of wine and couldnt get it dow, it was completly revolting to me. However I had no such problems with beer and had 3 large beers. I probaly would have had anouther but it was closing and I went home quite happy. The only thing that slightly bugs me is having nal in my system 4 or 5 times in any week. Oh well its all part of the ups and downs.

well done Mario - that sounds like good progress!

I used to be a big wine drinker, but since I've been on TSM I really have no desire for it. Like you, however, I can drink a beer or six. Haven't had anything for the past couple of days, but the longer I go without, the more I crave it. Newcastle calling...

Some friends are coming over for the weekend, so we'll see how things go.

Yeah weird-oh, its weird isnt it(pardon the pun- everyones a commedian) but even the idea of wine totally revolts me. I was actually in the supermarket doing grocery shopping last week and I couldnt help but grimace when I was passing the wine, just the idea of it was revolting. I think the fact that beer has a milder taste makes it easier to drink. But then the next problem rears it head as in all the calories in beer. I was never a spirit person but last weekend I drank malibu so that I wouldnt drink beer. Im afraid of shorts though because its so easy to go way way overboard. Agh the problems that go along with alcoholism

The thought of having nal in my system 4 times a week would be very disconcerting to me as well, as I really find it really unpleasant even after 15 months. As the treatment progresses you get to the point where you may only be taking it once a week or less, but you are still getting the benefits of all of those nals you took in the past. So I take the nal discomfort as a pain -gain type of thing. And it is SOOO worth it!