Shhhh. You are developing your new super-power! The superpower thing is supposed to be a secret from the newbies. If they sniff this out, we'll be flooded with TSM'ers only in it for the costumes.

Not another word PV.

now that you mention it Mario, I've been more concious of smells I think. No developments on the x-ray vision though

I had to go to a meeting last evening and we all went for a drink afterwards. Most people were driving so it finished early. I wanted another couple of drinks so went with hubby to local pub. I had two glasses of wine. No big deal but the reason Im posting about this is when it came to last orders which was always my cue to panic about my source of alcohol drying up, but not so last night. The barman asked us if we would like another and hubby ordered one but without a second thought I heard myself saying No I have to be up early in the morning, Im off home. I almost looked behind me to see who the person that had said it was but no, sure enough it had come out of my own mouth. Strange thing was I would have liked another one but it was like the person I was 10 years ago surfaced. Then even if I would have liked another drink sense would have prevailed and I would have thought of the morning and finished up and went home.



THANK GOD for nal

That ;'frame of mind' sounds like where we would all like to be Mario. I often envied others when we were out - who would think ahead of tomorrow/work or other commitments. I was always 'live for the moment'!!!!!

Its been a while since I posted. Im hopeless for keeping track of time or units but all that being said Im over the moon at the beinfits of nal. Typically I will have two or three glasses of wine and Im done but neither does it bother me when I have more because I never lose control anymore. I went to a fab hotel for the weekend and had a fab time from begining to end. Drink wasnt a problem or an issue from the word go. We had a couple of drinks with lunch and then did all the massage type stuff and relaxed before diner. Had about 8 drinks in total on Saturday. Sunday I just had two beers and lost interest in it. Ive lost some of my taste for wine so If I want to be sure of just having one or two drinks I will chose wine because I know I will drink it slower but if I would like a few more I will chose beer or have a few Irish coffees. I dont obsess about how many Ive had or how many Im going to have. Its just such a great feeling of relief. I probaly should keep more of an eye on units and progress but Ive spent so much of my life trying to drink less and making decisions surrounding the whole thing like buying less or not keeping it in the house that Im just happy to go with the flow of nal and as long as I take a nal an hour before I drink thats pretty much all I care about.

I never blackout any more and I rarely have hangovers. The days of waking up full of guilt in the small hours of the morning are a thing of the past, and above all my fear of how bad Im going to get in the future is completly gone. I panic every now and again about maybe not being able to get nal in the future but I figure that if its anywhere in the world I will find a way to get it.

OK thats my update for now

Very happy with progress this week. Had a few nights of having 3 or 4 beers and then went out with Hubby on Sunday night and had about 6 drinks over about 6 hours. It was a great night and though I was quite buzzed I was in no way drunk. Met some people I hadnt seen in years and it was close to 4am when we got home. Drank a couple of glasses of water when I got home and felt fine the day after, a bit tired but not hungover.

As we all know though the number of units or drinks though hugely important does not tell the whole story with TSM. If I were to continue at my present level of drinking and how I feel about drinking I would be very happy. Drinking on nal even when I drink more than three or four drinks is completly different in many ways. First the obsessive thoughts about drinking are completly gone now. When Im drinking I dont obsess about how much Ive left or how much more there is in the bottle, It just doesnt matter. There are no blackouts or episodes of crippling guilt. This is the type of drinking I did 20 years ago when having a drink was good but not the end all of everything.

You sound like you are doing great, Mario! I am so looking forward to the end of the obsession. To come home and drink a couple of glasses of water, instead of sneaking one last drink. Congratulations ... it sounds like you are almost, if not all the way, there!

Thanks for poping in YG.

Not near cured yet Im afraid. Last night Hubby had to go to a work party and was staying over in a hotel. This would normally have been a cue for me to drink to blackout. I didnt actually think of having a drink all day but got a strong craving around 9.30pm and took a nal. I had three pretty large hot whiskeys. I was in no way drunk but at the same time I was a bit pissed off as normally I dont drink on a Tuesday night. I know though that hubby being away was the trigger and tsm is all about drinking through triggers. I would probally have had another drink but there was no more in the house except for a bottle of champaign and I wasnt going to open that.

I feel fine physically today except for a vague pissed off feeling that I drank at all last night. Somehow I always think that drinking at the weekend is legit where as drinking during the week isnt.

Anyway eyes forward as they say.

Don't sweat it. You did the right thing. Took your Nal, and drank through the trigger. I still don't do AF days. I think about it, but in the end I take a Nal to be safe, then I drink. as the numbers go down I hope to be able to easily take Af days