Week 13 ending Feb 21
units 8

I had a big nite on friday...LOL I freaking love it now...lol huge night 5 beers started the 6th and couldn't drink it. I had some friends from out of town stop by and they wanted to party. I popped my pill an hour before they got there so I could be social. They were having mixed drinks beers shots...the party went on quite late. I passed on all mixed and all rounds of shots with ease...I was not going to puke again on a shot...LOL puking sober is no damn fun and it seems to happen on 1-2 shots so I simply wont drink them. HUGE 180 turn for me as all I ever drank was straight alcohol. I got crazy and exceeded my self imposed limit of 3..beer 4 got me buzzed...beer five higher but not in a fun way beer 6 was making me sick. LOL I had bed spins..LOL on 6 freaking beers. I woke up saturday feeling like crap..again I cant beleive I had a hangover on five beers. I could have easily stopped on 3 but by CHOICE decided to have numbers 4 and 5...almost to see what will happen now...like testing Nal and TSM...It came thru with flying colors...I HAVE ZERO FEAR OF ALCOHOL NOW. I went to bed buzzed but not drunk, could remember everything in the am, and truly did not enjoy being buzzed..it made me a hair sick.

Hung out with the same crew on Saturday and they were in full tilt hair of the dog party mode...LOL me I could have been the designated driver. I had 2 beers in a 6 hour period and drank cokes the rest of the time with ease...I'll be dammed if I was going to feel like **** again for not reason..meaning the buzz is no fun anymore and for that I am greatful not regretful in the least. I felt zero pressure to drink even being egged on all night to just break down and have a few...LOL I was like nope I'm fine you have fun buddy. they tried hard..what ya on health kick? little girl, blah blah blah..LOL I didn't care one bit and had a great time and never felt pressured or alienated or "different". Damn it's nice to have a TRUE power of choice, all thanks to TSM. I never felt I had to "breakdown" like in the past without TSM and Nal...back then if I broke down the floodgates were open...Nal is a solid heavily fortified dam.

starting to think maybe this what a normal drinker is...have no idea because I never was one

Sad note to add a very good friend of mine's sister was just hospitalized for alcoholism. She is almost comatose in ICU. My friends sister lives about 9 hours away from her family...the family just found out. The doctors are saying complete liver faliure, kiddney failure, wet brain, pnemonia and are not sure if she will make it. The girl weighed 165lbs prior and is now down to 80lbs. One of her sister got there to visit her and was in shock at her condition and her sister is almost comatose and didn't recognize her. My friend is leaving asap to go visit her. The doctors said it is 100% alcohol no other drugs in her system. She is 48 years old

I think there but the grace of God go I.

Crown, I can't say enough how ecstatically happy I am for you!! Your amazing stories, just continue to enthrall me - not partying down w/ your friends, not succumbing to the "pressure" to do so is just amazing. I am sooooooo happy for you!! And hope your friend's sister pulls through and that you can relate your success, if it's appropriate, to them.

Hope I can someday report the same success - :-))

Houtx

Thanks...My friend knows about TSM from me but I think his sister is too far gone the way it sounds..praying for...if she comes out of it and continues to drink I would try to tell her about it..sad situation

Wow, this is amazing! I'm so happy for you. I'm so hoping my boyfriend gets to this point soon. Way to take control of your life!!

Wow I guess it's been a couple months since I declared myself "cured" of whatever you want to call it with TSM. Life has been good. Since I havent posted in like a couple months I figured I would throw a status up. sorry for not posting regularly but it's weird when alchol was removed from life as a desructive force I really don't think much about it anymore. I sort got busy living again with all my old routines prior to going way off thee rails with booze. Funny old is new again and the newness fades and it's plain old life without booze...which is just fine with me and something I never thought was possible.

I always knew if I could just get off that damn bottle my life would fall back into place..and that is precisely what happened. Every area in my life is managable and mostly happy or content. I got out of TSM everything the book promised. The best I think is that I rarely think of alcohol now...it's just kind of a take or leave it type thing and it's most a leave it thing. I was re-reading some of my early posts here and man I feel SO deifferent now..it was not that long ago I was a drunk amongst drunks but it feels like a lifetime ago. It's weird how TSM re-wires your brain. But 100% re-wired mine. I kinda look at my drunk years as oh well that was just a phase..move past it. I could never have moved past it without TSM.

I am not 100% abstinent nor do I even care about it - meaning I think so little about alcohol - it plays zero role in my life. For example I have had maybe if had to guess since my last post a couple months ago maybe 10 beers..not sure don't count not do I care to anymore. In my book I am A ok fine. I had gone to AA in my youth for like 10 years ..no offense to anyone in AA but there would be no in hell it would ever work for me..NONE. I would have died if that was my only choice. I had a couple doctors tell me quit drinking or you will not see 50...I am 42. I am very well aware of how AA and the old saying it works if you work it..well hell willpower works if you work it...anything works if you work it.

Thats the part I loved about TSM..pharmalogical extinction works. I 100% beleive naltrexone re-wired my brain to a pre-alcoholic state. It sounds too good to be true I know...Just drink the way you normally would but take a pill each time you..the pill won't make you sick you can still get drunk..hell for me it oblitrated my tolerance from the get go...which at first i thought wow this is great Im a cheap date and think of all the money you will save. Then slowly but surely it happened I drank less and less, eneded my lifelong love affair with straight whiskey..I starting puking on 2 glasses of crown royal where I was always good for like 10-15 doubles ( I call'm doubles but who the hell knows how much I poured in my glass...lol more like quadruples probably)..then beer starting tasting like crap and then the big out of nowhere the DESIRE to get drunk simply disappeared. Then it went to not thinking about alcohol. If I do drink today it would the rare occasion I am out with friends or something.

At first i had a problem with the word cured they mention in the book "the cure to alcoholism" I no longer have any issue with the word...it's exactly what it is for me. Another site I used to post which was primarily an AA site, those people would have me burned at the stake for the word cure. Well bottom line it's what it is. They gave me crap like oh well if your cured why would have to take a pill the rest of your life? For me no PROBLEM...you only take it when you are going to drink..I have 90 something pills left..that could very possibly last my lifetime with drinking anymore..LOL long as they don't have an expiration date. I would much rather take a pill for the once or twice I now drink a month with like 2 beers each time than go to AA meetings 5 times a week and bitch moan and complain about booze week after week year after year and then relaspe..that would have been me. Quite honestly, it's so nice to not romanticize alcohol,turn to it, bitch about it, moan about...It's REALLY nice just simply forget all about it. TSM has done that for me. Don't get me wrong I have to pills in wallet and two in my car at all times...I never will forget the horror alcohol caused..never but I don't dwell on it anymore..it was phase how ever long it lasted it doesnt matter to me anymore..it's over it's done.

I also never bought into the powerless unmanagable turn it over to God routine...yes I beleive in god..but I am a firm beleiver in God helps those that helps themselves. I always felt the powerless turn it over to god was a cop-out. I beleived for me I got myself into this I NEED to get MYSELF out of this. I firmly beleive God led me to TSM and the rest was up to me...and how simple could it be..take a pill when you drink and let it re-wire your brain. No man is an Island. I received a ton of support from the all the awsome people which make up this forum, but if I didn't want to change, order the book read it, get the pills, take the pills when I drank..none of it would have mattered. I simply wanted to change and I still thank god every night for TSM.

Funny before starting TSM I was depressed to epic levels...going to shrink anti-depressants the whole nine yards. My shrink asked me one day "do you think your depression might have something to do with your drinking? anti depressants don't work if you drink the way you do." Quit the anti-depressants quit the shrink and kept drinking. In the back of my mind I figured when and if TSM worked for me I would start both again. Funny thing is today I don't see a shrink I am not on anti-depressants and life is good... ..happy to be alive everyday. Other thing that happened was right before I declared myself cured I got a German Shepherd and enrolled in one on one advanced obdience training. Anyone who has or has had a GSD know how important training is with this breed. My goal is to have my dog become a therapy Dog and hospice visits hospitals nursing homes etc. He has one test to go passed the first two with flying colors. From my training I have learned SO MUCH. I have had dogs all my life but never been to this hardcore of training program. Anyways what it all comes down with my dog is me...all me. This was THE best therapy for me personally I have ever had. It's wild how much human beings and animals have in common how much of this training is useful for me in day to day life outside of my dog.

Ok sorry for rambling...lol still longwinded here that will never change. Between work and my dog and all the little BS's of life there is zero room for the bottle anymore..all thanks to a pill called naltrexone and Dr. Sinclair's method of taking naltrexone.

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DOMD

I had an usual experience with TSM meaning it worked from the get go...it was the honeymoon that never stopped and just kept getting better and better. I started TSM right befor thanksgiving weekend here in the US around the end of November and declared myself cured around the end of Feb...so maybe three months. Drinking prior to TSM..brother out of F**King control to say the least. My tolerance was bizzare. I considered myself primarialy a binge drinker even though I would usually have a few beers everday..LOL had to after the binges to keeps the shakes an anxiousness at bay. My binges would last roughly 3 days. I would buy at the store two half gallons of Candian Club and a 30 pack..at the end of three days there wasn't much left. for the last 2.5 years or so I got the point of drinking alone and at home. My friends didn't want to drink with me because of all the bullshit that went on, I didn't want a dwi or get aressted for assult, I really didn't want to be around my friends, my fiance left over the bottle. These 3-4 day binges were round the clock drinking. it's like going to Las Vegas with your buddies - I lost all sense of time. I would drink till I passed out and then wake up and do it again.

As far as actual units go looking back what I did put down is probably low because I never measured out my drinks with a shot glass. To me a beer was a unit and a glass of whiskey was a unit which my glass of whiskey would be like 4-6 units I am pretty sure. I would take a water glass fill it with ice then Pour Crown or Candian Club half way up and drink, no coke no water in it...LOL that would kill the taste. These drinks I could be good for like 10-15 plus beer..all depends on when I fell down - ie passed out and blacked -out. I had doctors tell me your not gonna see 50..Im 42. I was so depressed I didn't care and hoped I would go sooner than 50. I was doing my best to be Nick cage in Leaving Las Vegas.

The last 2-3 years of my drinking were way out of control..prior to these years I was always a huge drinker..just not on this level. One of the first things I always said to girls I dated prior was I am a high functioning alcoholic don't ever question my drinking. I worked hard and drank hard...then about three years ago I went WAY OFF THE RAILS with alcohol. I wish I found TSM like 6-8 years prior.

WOW! That story was great. i love hearing this type of thing. Gives me hope. thanks! I gotta stick with this thing

I havent posted in a while..around 3 weeks to a month. Not much has changed life is pretty boring and I AM LOVING that. I am currently on a vaction doing a little fly fishing and visiting some relatives that all drink heavy. They want to know if Im sick...LOL. They all think it's great I barley drink. Its funny I had an uncle ask "so what did you do go to AA or something find god?" He asked me this as I had a beer in my hand which I brought to his attention. He said " yeah I see the beer but you only have one or two if you drink at all anymore"...GOTTA LOVE IT...he is way too old school to explain TSM and naltrexone. Some of my cousins asked me what I did so I told them...they are like yeah I gotta slow it down too Im not getting any younger..Funny when you quit or barley drink in your 40's no one really cares meaning there is not much peer pressure by friends and family to drink like we were 20...getting older has it's advantages.

I am on vacation for 2 weeks and I have had like 8 beers.average session was 1...on one ocassion I got crazy and had 2 beers..have to admit I love that one cold beer after fishing for 9-10 hours. Yep I take my Naltrexone an hour before and after I have one I have ZERO desire for anymore. I sit around and enjoy the evening drinking soda with family watching them get plowed playing cards etc and dont feel out of place one iota. And while they are moaning and groaning at day break to go fishing I am bright eyed bushy tailed and gone and feel great.

I cant beleive it but I have not been drunk in like 4-5 months. I was bad bad when I first came here and started naltrexone. If someone is newer and wondering jesus is this guy even an alcoholic, If you care to you can read my story in the story section. I posted it when I first got here. Rehab was suggested the whole nine yards. But a $20.00 book ad about $300 in pills saved my life. I will be forever greatful to TSM and Dr. Davis Sinclair and this forum.

Hell I even managed to quit smoking...never would have happened drunk.