As I mentioned in my 'weekly' (which is actually whenever I find time to log on) on Jan. 20, I had been AF for 6 days. I managed another day for 7, yay! But Friday night 2 girlfriends and I went to happy hour, I had 2 chardonnays (not my wine of choice, but most places here don't carry rieslings, am I the ONLY one who likes sweet wine??) with a meal. The one who was driving dropped us off at our cars in our work parking lot, it was only 7:45pm. I thought geez, the night is young, so I went and got my 2 bottles of what I usually drink, drank both, felt fine, went to bed around 11:30. Big mistake, HUGE!!!! Sometime in the night woke up with a raging headache, took some excedrin, went back to bed. When I awoke around 9:00 the next morning, the headache was gone but I felt really, really horrible, all day too, like I was going to be sick, hated myself. I had a dinner date that night too with another girlfriend and I was determined not to cancel as I'd cancelled on her before. Fortunately I felt quite a bit better around 5:00. We went to dinner, had 1 glass of chardonnay and that was it. Got home around 8:00, no way was I going to go get my wine. So, after the week-end debacle, I was AF again Sunday thru Thursday, but Wednesday night I was apparently screaming in my sleep. My ex (yeah, we still live/sleep together) woke me up (he was so freaked out by my behavior) and all I said was that I couldn't breathe and was scared, and I was! I remember making noise, but I didn't think it was screaming and I don't remember any dream. Don't know if it's the lingering congestion or my now weird drinking pattern. But in any case, it is now Friday and I have no intention of drinking tonight. I still remember last Friday and it was NOT fun. I really have no craving either. But I carry my nal with me at all times, just in case I end up in a situation where a drink may be involved. But right now at this point I have no desire at all to visit my local liquor store ( I bet they really miss me, or at least my money! )
So for the most part I'm pleased that I managed a total of 12 days AF for the month of January as of this writing. And I'm confident I'll get through this week-end AF as well!
Oh, plus I've lost 4 pounds too!

-petal

keep up the good work, and don't be discouraged by occasional lapses.

Yes, focus on your improvement. It sounds like you are well on your way to complete control.