+1 to what craving said.
So I f*ed up. Baaaaad.
I got all worked up thinking about Jess and couldn't stand it anymore. I wanted to kill someone yesterday I was so angry, and just
profoundly sad. This is a bad trigger for me. So I caved. I had 2
huge bowls of Fiber One raisin bran...at 11pm no less.

I just couldn't control myself, I would have eaten the whole box if I hadn't run out of milk!.
I woke up this morning feeling guilty as hell and wanting to kick myself in the head for what I did. All day long. I set myself back like 1000kcals, basically one whole day. I was fuming pissed! Then I remembered that it was time to do my weekly update (well, in 3 hours).

Talk about losing sight of what's important...lol
I'm lucky I'm alive. Alcohol is so far from my mind right now. It not only doesn't control what I do, think, or feel anymore...I'm just not even spending
any energy at all trying to not drink! I don't even think about it anymore.
I've gotten into a daily habit of taking 200mgs of baclofen once at 2pm and I've got my naltrexone if I want to drink. Soon though, when I'm done with my protocol (Feb-Marchish) I'm gonna back off the baclofen to see where I'm at. I'm definitely not looking forward to it though.