I am doing my first weekly progress report!
I will start out by saying I have a very liberal doctor; he will literally prescribe me anything. I casually joked with him that I wanted diet pills once and he gave me a prescription for them! I might be 5-10 pounds overweight but certainly no reason to have diet pills. On a side note I never filled the script.He ended up giving me a prescription for Nal with a little bit of haggling, AA, counseling etc.
I was surprised when I got a little bit of a look from the pharmacist. She told me that she didn’t even think they carried this stuff. It got worse when I went to pay for it and my debit card came back declined. Now I really was embarrassed, buying Nal and not even having the money? Ahhh. The pharmacist was really giving me some looks. I did have money in the bank; I have no idea why it didn’t go through. My sister paid for it and we went to bank where I paid her back. The pharmacist gave me a severe warning of not to drink while taking it. Okay????
Holy crap. It was $84 Canadian dollars for a two-week supply!
He prescribed me 50 mg of Revia once daily. I proceeded to go home, look as much as I could up on line and then have a full on panic attack when it came time to take it. Eventually, I broke down and took it and I convinced my sister to stay with me for a couple of hours while the panic attack subsided.
I took only 25 mg and was soooooo ill. I could not even stand up, and I continued to be sick all the next day while barely getting through work. The next day was New Years Eve and I had my daughter with me to spend the evening at a friends house, I just could not imagine spending it with her sick on the couch so I opted out of the pill that night and drank quite a bit but not as much as I usually do on New Years. (funny how I seem to think that boozing it up in front of her is fine but being sick isn’t….hmmmm) Regardless I remember all of the evening and felt fine the next day. Well I have continued to take 25 mg a day for the last five days. It was hard to take the pills in the beginning, even the thought of taking them made me want to throw up. I have had two units per night. A couple of nights I could have easily gone without anything. I have not gone up to 50 mg but I will if it feels like the 25 mg is not working. As long as the 25 mg. is working I will use it and I will also be saving money.
I am going to count a bottle of wine as 8 units based on a glass in my house that I have and will continue to use it as a counting system. I figure I probably drank 56-65 units per week pre., that may or may not include some beers with lunch or some crazy night where I decide to drink 2 bottles, but it is probably an average. Maybe higher.
This week I drank 23 units (10 on New Years Eve and two mimosas the following morning). This week was weird, I was nauseous the entire week and felt slightly stoned each time I took the Nal. I do feel the change when I drink now, it just doesn’t have that kick anymore. I don’t know how long this will last or when I will have to go up to 50 mg. I know that my skin is looking better already. And I am loving sleeping. As a drunk I never had a good nights sleep and woke up early every morning only to start smoking and drinking coffee. Now I could stay in bed all morning. I personally have not had a hard time sleeping at all. Maybe the insomnia will come?
My nausea is starting to wear off…..and so is my patience! I actually start smashing my Blackberry against my steering wheel today when the browser was slow, (I was parked). I envisioned throwing it out the window and driving over it until it was dead. I am assuming I am in this foul mood as I am detoxing to a degree. To go from drinking 8 glasses of wine a night, to two is a big change for my body. I have sworn more in the last two days than I have in my life. I am even swearing as I type this.
Anyways I am trying to stay positive about the future and the help that Nal is giving me in beating my addiction. I am hoping that the Nal continues to do what it’s doing and eventually I have a AF days. I am also taking it easy on myself, lying on the couch watching crap TV shows is allowed right now. Just because I am not getting smashed each night does not mean I have to turn into a Superwoman who suddenly does it all. That will be next week! I really hope this continues to work for me; I am enjoying the clear evenings and hangover free mornings.
Thanks all again for your support.
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