Houtx, this is such wonderful news!!! That you are not nauseated anymore yet still don't have the taste for wine -- I am so happy for you. This is progress indeed!

Queaziness came back yesterday & numbers down. Today too. Don't feel like eating much either. Nothing sounds good. Today, not feeling icky physically, but it looks like boitoi has vaporized and I am just numb...

Sorry to here of vaporization but take heart. Many fish in the sea. Sorry for the cliche. When you are better the world gets better. I wish you the best and hope for awesome things in the future for you. Just saying cheers and all the best. Tater

Me too sorry for "vap." Is there a gal here who does not feel what you feel? Nothing to offer except good thoughts for you, my dear. It's so true that once you are "your old self" good things will happen. You deserve a man in your life who cares about YOU. I speak from experience as I've been married three times and "have given myself away" without getting back way too many times. We always give so much - getting back will be good - onwards and upwards!

First off, just want to say Happy Holidays & Merry Christmas to all my dear ones here!!

I have so appreciated this site and your support on the many different threads we've started and pursued here. I have learned so much, been so entertained and just being a part of this great family of friends and souls struggling with the same stuff, has been HUGE. This year has not been as successful on the drinking front, as I'd hoped for me, but being here on this board, has been great therapy. Thank you so much -

I just had an appt Mon. w/ my Dr who prescribes this stuff, and he was not behind upping my dose. Just said keep on...which I will. He said he went to a conference in Boston where NAL was talked up pretty highly as being the drug of the future for AL addiction. Yet, he said the guys who were behind it are researchers who have maybe 1-2 patients. My Dr does not have any patients on it either - he asked me if I wanted to go back down to 50 mgs. I said no...I will continue on w/ 100 mgs until I don't know when. He alluded to the next step being the injections. He also asked me if I'd considered going back to AA, therapy (He's a psychiatrist!!! I found that weird, suggesting therapy - ) or even outpatient rehab. I was like, ICK, NO!! Sheesh - I am thinking WHAAAAA????

Anyway - am keeping on. Had dinner w/ my HB tonight. :-)) Sweet...details to follow on the other thread. New Year's Resolutions will have to be strong...I must make more efforts on my own outside this drug as it is just not working for me. Am thinking one day/wk AL free for one month then 2 days/wk in 2nd month, then 3 days, etc. I think I can do that...baby steps.

Cheers to all, and hope alls well w/ all of you. Wishing everyone a peaceful, happy holiday!
XXXOOO

Looks like there are a few of us in the same boat, ugh! Good luck Houtx and Merry Christmas, Happy New Year too!

I am learning slowly but surely..one cannot post here & leave those thoughts in limbo w/o "submitting" for very long. Otherwise those posts will simply dissappear, as I have noticed...! blch!!

Anyway - more to follow. I posted mucho good stuff about my progress, thoughts on TSM, my progress, others, etcetcetce - LOLOLOL

Loving life large & more to follow!

XO

GO TEXAS LONGHORNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET OUT THERE & OPEN UP A BIG OL' CAN O' WHOOP ASS & STOP THAT TIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok - commercial break - my last post sat there too long the other night & couldn't get on last night. Basically, I had an AF day Monday & it was GREAT. Went until about 8:30 Tuesday night when I just had a couple. I was actually feeling ehhhhhh about it, but caved. Didn't taste good either. I know this stuff is working if I let it. I just have a HABIT I can't seem to break. Being alone is a huge trigger.

My daughter cam e over tonight for awhile, I had taken my pills earlier knowing I was watching the game all by my lonesome (got an invite to go out but it is FREEZING cold here - seriously about 25 degrees & I wasn't in the mood to meet my old FB (Michigan guy) at a sports bar and have him act all ooky & affectionate towards me. ICK!!) Altho I sure would like to be in a crowd yelling my head off!!

BoiToi & I were IMing last night & he told me he is actually going on a meet & greet tonight. Sheesh - kinda made me sad. Then HB texting is a whole 'nuther story & also ended up disappointing me. I had a pretty sad night last night. sniff. Oh well - an arctic cold front blew in, I am getting back into the routine after the holidays, and tonight was/is the BIG GAME!!!!!!!
I rallied wit muh bad sef! LOL

But back to the topic, without jumping up & down about it, I have felt positive changes too and especially going AL for 36 hrs...I enjoyed that "quiet" time and felt different. I think. LOL No, I really did feel ehhhhhh about having a drink Tuesday, and kinda disappointed I caved, but ok with it. Hang in all - I think we are on the right track.

GO HORNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (Funny - my son goes to A&M/bleeds maroon and of course, anything anti-Longhorns, the Ags are behind. It's all so ridiculous!! And now the Crimson Tide gets their support??!! Blaspheme!!!! I am not speaking to him at the moment :-))

They went after McCOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! F*****G TIDE. GILBERT the pressure is on!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LONGHORN BAND ROX THE ROSE BOWL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaron Copeland's "Rodeo: Hoedown"...was the theme of a national ad campaign a couple years back: "Beef?? It's what's for dinner!"

TEXAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are freezing our asses off, but LOVE our LONGHORNS Fighting the DAMN Crimson TIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We are MAD & WE WILL WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So MAD they killed McCoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GO HORNS GO HORNS GO HORNS GO HORNS GO HORNS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And ****!!!! COLT will not be playing the rest of the game!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Poor kid - now the game rests on a FRESHMAN?????? Gilbert is GOOD, God help him, but say prayers.....GO HORNS!!!!!