Good Morning Internet! All the best for the new year, to all who happen to receive this transmission... in whatever year you happen to be in, on whatever day it happens to be. Here on the sending end, it is the early morning of January 1st, 2010.
TSM has started auspiciously, thought the story is not all polka dots and moonbeams. It is now the end of the night, and I'm sober enough to type. That's good. I took 50mg Nal @ 5:45p on an empty stomach and poured the first drink at 7p. This is my second dose of naltrexone ever; originally I had planned to take 25mg (a half dose) out of fear of side-effects.... but due to the big-drinking special occasion I just took the full 50mg. For those tracking side effect data: I've had zero side effects, this stuff is really, really easy to tolerate. Don't be too afraid of the reports of nausea and so forth.
By my calculations it is (looking around the room at the empties) eight hours and 7 U.S. drinks later. I have drinks 8-10 in a glass in front of me, vodka with pomegranate juice. Compared to a typical bender, this is nothing. Very good.
Several interesting things happened tonight. First of all, for the first eight hours or so I averaged under one drink per hour, without trying. It is New Years Eve and it is only my second day on naltrexone. I didn't leave the house, so there were no reasons to be careful about how much I drank. If I'd been blotto drunk by 9pm it would have been fine, I could have slept on the couch. This is where it gets interesting. Between 7p and 10p I had three drinks... I was busy playing with a new laptop and didn't pay attention to my drinking rate. Then the girlfriend and I congregated in the kitchen at the stove, chatting about the viscosity of the fondue we were working on and drinking some good champagne. Chat, sip, stir, chat, stir, sip, chat.... then a very strange thing happened:
SHE ASKED ME TO REFILL HER GLASS
and I realized I'd completely lost track of mine. I was absorbed in animated conversation about TSM. I'd announced earlier that I was taking my new "drinking medicine" and would be ready to have a drink in an hour. We discussed the internet, the approval process for new drugs, the democratization of emerging scientific knowledge, finland, baclofen, blah blah blah... where's my drink, again? Stirring the fondue, she points out that our glasses are empty, and that the champagne is waiting patiently in the open bottle on the counter not more than 30cm from my elbow.
I refilled the glasses, she continued stirring, our discussion continued, the fondue was ready. I put on oven mitts and moved the iron vessel of molten cheese to the table where we dipped in bread and broccoli, continued our wide-roaming discussion, and then she then pointed out "you forgot to bring your drink". Whoa.
FAST FORWARD
At about eight hours since I took the 50mg naltrexone, she was fading.... and I was starting to think I wanted another drink, that I wanted to "finish the job". Uh oh. That's The Beast talking, the thing that Will Not Be Satisfied. I now sit in front of the empty glass that the beast poured, and I'm considering pouring another. This is just not the same individual that forgot to bring his champagne from the kitchen to the dinner table. Well, maybe I'm schizophrenic... I don't think so. Neither do I.
THE $64k QUESTION
is whether "just take 50mg naltrexone before you drink, every time you drink" is the whole story. The naltrexone was sufficient for the first six hours, for sure. The important thing is pharmacological extinction. Ideally you'd have a display on your wristwatch that showed when the naltrexone was wearing off and your opioid receptors were freeing up, and you'd e.g. take another 25mg. I got the feeling that the nal was wearing off. In fact, I'm going to go pour a drink right now that I don't want. (it is now 4:30 am)
I'm wondering about some of the longer-drinking, tougher cases on the board, who aren't seeing results 4 or 5 months in, but hopefully I'm doing so for scientific reasons. If one usually drinks from noon to 2am, and 50mg naltrexone is good to keep your opioid receptors plugged from, say, noon until 8pm, then pharmacological extinction isn't going to occur. It might actually cause the late night drinking to be especially brutal, as the endorphin-starved neural pathways finally start to get a little taste of what they crave and demand more.
Just thinking. Happy new year, internet.
_________________ Pre-TSM: 40+ /wk Units/wk: 18, 21, 19, 10, 17, 24, 13 Baclofen started week 4 Last updated Feb 8, 2010
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