everyone needs goals in their lives but that's not always possible when it has to do with your brain, alcohol and meds. Sorry I wish goals could move all of us that much closer but that isn't the case here. Keep living your life as though you're not taking the Nal, let me back up here keep taking the Nal one hour before drinking that means even one beer, but live your life not obsessed with Feb. The de-addiction creeps up on you when you lease expect it focusing on it won't speed it up. Sit back with a sigh of relief that it is coming and now you're a lot closer than you were before you stated tsm.


corkit

I completely agree with what your saying about my febuary goal/timeframe...after all the reading i have done here and the book quite honestly I really have no clue of when my freedom will be. I truly beleive this will work after all the reading i have done and at this point figure I have nothing to lose. How long does the honey moon period last? Today I had one of my major triggers thats sends me off on a good binge that could last 24 hours to 72 hours...in my mind I said F It...cleared the decks so to speak to be AWOL for the next 2 days...stocked up at the liquor store last night half gallon a fifth 30 pack carton of smokes and enough frozen food which I barley eat when binging to last for a couple days. I never ever drive when I drink. I watched to many friends whom I dont even consider alcholics or even problem drinkers go through hell an the expense of DWI's. I was and am totally prepared for never never land with booze but for some reason I just cant seem to begin to go there and trust me not because i am fighting the craving to do it. I have been nursing beers..I have had 4 beers all day and one crown on the rocks...been drinking since noon. I have nothing stopping me but for some reason which has to be the the medication...I either cant or dont want to get them down...i am astounded with this honeymoon or not. I know this no where close to extiction as mentioned in the book or this site. All i do know this honeymoon period saved me two or three days of hell and the depression that follows and being MIA and lord knows if I find my phone and the drunk dials to the last family members and friends totally drunk and depressed and hopeless. I took one pill 50mg last nite at 7 ish and another one today at 11 am.

Whomever started this BB is a saint. I think just reading the book would not have done it for me. Being able to read all of your experiences here has made a world of difference in trying and hope. If this works for me I will owe the person who sent me the PM in the other forum my life. Damn I thought it was an infomercial...LOL I was pissed thinking here some greedy marketeer trying to profit on the sick and hopeless.

you are on the honeymoon period and sorry to say it won't last. I personally choke back the first 2 glasses of wine and then the rest goes down without a problem Just keep telling yourself this is a journey not a week's vacation and you'll be ready for the rest. Keep posting so we know how you're doing and remember we're here for you.

corkit

Corkit

Does the medication continue to make the "buzz" seem not quite like THE BUZZ? Its hard to describe...I have noticed when I admitted I had a problem I paid very close attention to my drinking and found everytime like clock work on the first crown on the rocks about 2/3 thru the glass its like BANG ok here we go not gonna stop. Or is this "new" almost nonexistent buzz gonna go away with the honeymoon period to?

Who was that person? The infomercial sounds like a PM I would have sent but I don't remember PM'ing you.

Loop

It was actually another newer person here I dont want to mention just because I didnt ask them if it was ok...but yep I would have sworn the PM was an infomercial for like vitamin suplements till I read the links and ended up here...Im glad I did

Crown -
You have posted in other places and other threads, very positive and promising. I hope all has continued to go well for you. It is AMAZING you went from the Crown-soaked drunk to where you are now. I need to catch up on other threads to see where you are - have read your comments to others and love your posts. You sound like a strong, fun, interesting guy who has come so far with this drug. I've enjoyed reading your posts w/ Nick & others - you are such a good cheerleader for this method and how it has helped you.

Your story is incredible - and your fiance sounds like an angel to have put up with you, no offense! I hope if it's meant to be, it is still there with her. I am just dumbfounded with your stories....loved every detail!

May I just ask one thing...please make paragraphs after about 5 - 10 sentences. LOL It is so hard to read long posts with no paragraphs...my eyes cross and glaze over and I have a hard time keeping up as I scroll down the page. Normally I would take 10 points off your grade, but am letting you off with a warning this time. LOL

I am responding to an older post here, but catching up all across the board and spent a long time reading this one. "Good stuff" in the sense it was riveting - hope all continues to go well w/ you, Crown :-)

XO

Houtx

Thanks for the nice comments. The relationship is officially over. In the end it was not all booze but it sure helped destroy things. I am very very good at blaming myself for everything but reality is booze was only part of the problem.

As far as where I am with this drug - to me it's a freaking MIRACLE. Mentally I was in the depths of hell and today as I write this I am long ways from where I want to be in terms of depression and feeling OK. But with not dumping crazy amounts of alcohol down my throat I am NOWHERE NEAR as depressed as I was 2 months ago. I know have a fighting chance. I am sure everone here knows the cycle drink then the guilt depression drink some more to kill the guilt and depression and it never ends, over and over.

The thing I love that TSM has done for me was it JAMMED the breaks on HARD and allowed me to get off the merry-go-round of alcohol. I am still in the crazy ass amusement park but at least now I can see a way out and am slowly finding it...but thank God I'm not riding the rides.

My goal was to get back into my profession in a big way for 2010. I am on track to gett of my ass and make things happen the first week of January. Made all my contacts etc needed and will be ready to roll. Without TSM NO WAY IN HELL this would have happened..NO WAY. Mentally I was too down and out to play the game again. If anyone is here is self-employed you know how Fing positive you have to be to fight and play the game. TSM has given this back to me enough to get back in the ring and keep on fighting.

I like to also post on MWO - I also put some comments up on Sober Recovery - I was in AA in my youth (didn't need it then ) and when I decided I needed help I thought now way I am going to die with a bottle in my hand before I sit in those church basement drinking coffee and enter back ino that sub-culture. Truly I am not knocking AA. I have several friends and family in the Program. One thing I remember about AA was spread the message or word. I feel it is VERY Important to get the word out about naltrexone. It truly might save a life, I know it saved mine. I never tell people to try it or it's "THE" only way. I just share what it's done for me.

As far as my non-paragraphs...LOL sorry...when I first came and to other forums I really didn't know the edicate...LOL I tend to be long-winded so no edicate and longwinded = nightmare read.

Sorry for my story being "War and Peace"

Crown its so awesome to see that your not taking your gift lightly at all. Keep on pushing. Reach out and take it!

Its hard to imagine how we as self employed got as far as we did or for those that have managed to persue a carreer and hold down a long term job. We have done what others have done only we carry a great burden. But it just goes to show how much we could all accomplish without the burden of addiction.

Truely this is a gift, a second chance even, maybe going as far as being reborn. Its all new again and and slate is clean. What will you do with your new life? (rehtorical)

Happy for you,

hap

Hapful

Thanks. Yes I agree this is a second chance and also agree with re-born...and I'm not even close to where you are at. But after a month I am quite happy with the results and can see it only getting better. it's too hard to screw this chance up...Nal+1hr=drinking...Even a drunk like me can stick to that one the rest of his life.