I really wish we could get together, sit down face to face and just talk about some ****. I wish that I could go out on the town with V and 8 and nick and everybody else and show them a good time. I wish that I had a freaking secretary or someone that I could dictate all of this stuff to that is floating around in my brain that I'm not prolific enough to put into writing. I wish that there were 100 hours in every day.

As it is lately I don't drink much, if at all anymore. In fact I'm struggling desperately to try to fit a suitable time to drink once a week into my schedule so that I can keep TSM working for me. It's 4:30 am here, I'm starting my cardio in an hour. I'm going to work after that. When I get home I'm gonna hit the gym. I'm going to consume 7 meals today that are weighed out to the gram. All of this is routine for me and easily accomplished...I am a creature of habit first and foremost. The rest of my day I'm going to try and disseminate as much information as I can about alcoholism, my passion. I wish I could do it in a way that is more effective. I thought that I was going to have to find things to do to fill in all of the extra time I now have. I'm sitting on like 10 pieces of research that I want to post but I can't because I haven't even read them in full yet. I need a freaking to-do list.

I'm renting a house that I haven't even stepped foot in in months because if I did I'd probably end up in a psych ward again. All of this would be much easier if I could just lay down next to her and have her put her hand on my head. Talk about a level of oblivion that I could never reach with alcohol. At least I could get some sleep...

Anybody want to have a beer?

Nope, I don't want to have a beer right now. Maybe later in the week.

I guess I lost track of your situation. I'm going to re-read your posts over the last few weeks to see what's going on.

Feel free to PM me for my phone #. I'm am quite a texter since I got my BlackBerry. That's the best way for me to communicative - asynchronously.

Bob

Aw, LOop....so much here. You melted my heart with "if only she...". Thinking about you & hope all continues to go well. Be strong - and yeah, wish I could go out and have that drink (just 1 or 2) w/ everyone too!
Cheers!

Loop

I would love to grab a beer with you buddy. Funny I was thinking how nice it would be if TSM had meetings like AA. I would venture to say they wouldn't be held in a church basement, more than likely a bar. They would be a hell of a lot more fun than AA. A group all drinking to get sober..LOL how ironic is that.

Hi Lo0p,

Now, that's a very kind thought.

I'll drink to that!

V.

Oh that would be such a great support if we could do that sometime. We have such an interesting and diverse membership here, it would be a fascinating evening indeed