You're our friend Evan...(lo0p)

Lo0p please respond back, we're all concerned about you. WE NEED YOU, who will analyze what is going on with this board if you don't do it for us? Remember you're unique, special, loved and there is someone out there just waiting for someone as special as you to walk into their life, just like you did in ours

Yeah so I just got out of jail. I guess I got in a fight with my dad...news to me. I think my arm is broken. I'll get back to you guys tonight, I've got some psychiatrists to go see.

Ohhhhhhhhhh Evan Evan Evan -

I will pm you my phone number and want you to call me anytime. I can't say anything better than anyone else here. You are valued, you are needed, you are loved, and you are only in temporary pain. Do not do anything permanent to try and resolve that. Time and talk will help ease the pain of the devastating heartbreak over Jesse. You are not alone. Oh. My. God. Hearts are shattering all over the world at this very second. I have been there, as many of us have, crying so hard, so long...I still hurt sometimes. I tell myself what is meant to be will be. I know it's true but it still hurts. You WILL survive it. Be strong! Cry as much as you want but do NOT lose your mind. We are here for you. And obviously you have many others who are too.

As for what happened last night, we have all done **** that we regretted for the rest of our lives. Whatever happened to land you in jail, break your arm, etcetcetcetc...you will get through it. It may be expensive, but you will get through it. Please believe in your friends and supporters here and do not leave us.

You are in my heart and thoughts. I am thinking about you & worried too. please post back soon.

XXXOOO

Thanks so much for posting Evan, though things didn't go so well last night. We need you here, your friends and loved ones need you, heck you're a damn talented, resourceful and strong guy, that much is obvious - the world needs you in it.

Hope you're doing what you need to do right now my friend. However tough it is right now, just get through. Good things await at the other side, I promise.

And keep on posting when you can, you hear???!

Lo0p, I can't change what's happening in your life but I want you know I holding you whether you can feel it or not and I won't let go. God has made a way of escape for all of us and there's a whole new life beyond what we can see right now, hold on to that my dear friend.

Evan, my thoughts and prayers are with you. You are so young and have so much life yet to live, and so much to give. I'm glad you posted, everyone is worried. If your arm is broken it will heal, a broken heart and soul need a different kind of heal and I hope that the psychiatrists and all of us here can help you heal and realize what a special person you are. All of us are here for you.

petal

Thanks everybody. Really, thank you very much. I really appreciate all of your concern and I've received several very considerate PM's and emails and phone numbers and trust me I will use them if I need to.

Thanks for catching me rapper. In my pain I hadn't considered that that was what i was doing and IMO that is a horrific thing to do to someone else. I did talk to Jesse last night and I was very candid with her but I made sure that she understood that what i was going through was not her fault and that she had/has no control over it. The conversation, like 4 hours long, actually went pretty well.

I'm confused as to why, after not even drinking my current allotment of 500ml of 40 proof vodka I blacked out and got into a fight with my dad. I've never been into a fight in my entire life. Even with alcohol. I've never displayed violent behavior before.

I talked to my former boss this morning and she offered to set me up and pay for a psych that she trusts and i really appreciate it. She's a very good friend of mine. Honestly though, with all of the so called "professional" experience I've encountered recently, you people are my main source of relief and truth. Well you and Jess. I thank my higher power for this website and all of the wonderful human beings I've met here.

SOOoooo happy you posted Evan - thanks for making the effort in the midst of all the turmoil. Remember that when things are at their worst, it can only get better. Glad you're OK. I can sleep in peace now. Thanks again.