it's curious how everybody's story, though similiar, is also very different. i have not had 1, yes, ONE, whole AL free day since starting May 13, and then boom, all of a sudden, friday, one sake, saturday, and sunday, AL free. It's almost as though I can THINK about AL now, whereas before AL was def in control. Like when i was taking acetaminephin over the weekend and the warning says to avoid alcohol, like the fact that i am starting to rationalize that i probably spend anywhere from 100 to 200 dollars a week on wine and hey? wouldn't it be nice to have that money to spend on something else or save...maybe one of the reasons why i am always stressin about "where IS my money going?" (of course i KNEW where, but AL (cunning, baffling...) i'll give bill THAT, hmph!) but yeah, i can relate to the wine tasing like S*** thing, even good wine, happened around the start of my 3rd month i think? and red red wine has been my theme song since i was 24 and let's say that's almost a decade! it was so weird, i would almost 'suffer' through the first few drinks, but then after about the 3rd, it would come back, but i wouldn't get the 'high', drunk and oblivious, yes, high, no...so i knew it was futile yet it still offered reprieve and escape and it was a BIG habit, 2 bottles/nightly for 8 years...A LOT! but the futility of it all is becoming so much clearing and it has come on rather suddenly, i don't know if it was spurned on by my slight illness this weekend or what (would NOT) have stopped me before), but even so, i am glad. we shall see=) i am going to get ready for work tonight, normally, i would stop by the wine store to p/u a few bottles to have handy, but since the craving is about a 2 or so, i don't know, i am anxious tho that i will get home and the craving will spike and not have any, but at the same time, want to keep up these AL free days, hmmmmm....decisions, decisions...maybe i will keep my money all week and as a reward buy myself a new outfit for fall, my brain actually is about as excited at that prospect as drinking a bottle of wine...WOW!!!
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