So .......Without further ado, .... I'm done , and TSM and NAL has won .
And that's a difficult act to follow in words !.
Although my figures may not look high , NAL always curbed me but it was only in week 27 that craving plummeted right down . The long time was no doubt owing to a good thirty six years drinking . So if anyone approaches or exceeds six months and has scored high on years and/or intake be patient take heart . The end phase was nothing vague but very conspicuous , you
will
NOT miss it - I mean drinking without effort to moderate at safe levels ( which are so ridiculously low for any serious pro ! ) - this does not go unnoticed .
I'm not an old man but not in the first flush of youth either and whatever time remains I'm deeply happy that it won't be as the last twenty plus years .
Thankyou Dr Sinclair , thankyou Dr Eskapa so much from the bottom of my heart .
Lest i never forget I poured over my drinking diaries going back to the eighties and what alot of sad wallowing and tedious repettition just one bottom line " Quiet desperation " . retreading the same path really corrodes the soul .
No more drunkalogues now . I'll never forget but the retreads are finally over.
A particular source of joy for me last week was when I saw my liver function test improving . I've had steatosis for years and alternating abstinence with excess hadn't got shot of it but consistantly drinking less ( tsm) has got it on the run, a while longer and hope it'll be in the normal range .
I must say in a dark moment I considered how odd it'd be to be both cured
by tsm and having fatal liver disease , I think the mix of emotions would of been more than I could bear . But fortunately there's good news on both fronts .
Tsm has brought excellent odds to play for the alcoholic , despite that,
I don't think it would be normal or even human to be unreservedly and extensively ecstatic when we know one or two people in every ten will not
suceed with tsm . That must be very painful to discover after the hope and effort . However it is still not so worrying as it has always been until recent history . Personally I wouldn't hesitate to take Balcofen if that were my case .
N101CS - if you're lurking - thanks for this board , I apreciate it so much and on a range of levels from vital support and crucial effort along to great entertainment . Of course all posters made this happen . Cheerleaders , angels, wisecrackers , graphfreaks , and indefatigable buttpains like myself . Thanks a bunch bunch !

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Because this is where it happens the highs the lows, then finally we get cured and this is where the announcement goes . It feels like a close extension of myself .
A special hug for moderators Nick and Lena .
And another hug for Lena whose posts
bought my eye on MWO at the turn of the year .
For the near future I'm watching keenly Soulby and rooting for WTE, Bambeachin, G4M , I know it's been long for you .Calkine and Krazy1 and
All tsm friends too .
I'd like to help out now here and locally.
Once again a final boundless thankyou to the doctors . As truly .....
:D TSM RULES !
There's no doubt about it