It’s time to report my progress for week
27, and this has been a
good one! Nothing too exciting with my numbers, although my overall craving seems lower. The most significant thing that happened was last Friday night. My husband, youngest daughter and sister/brother-in-law were hanging out, and the adults were naturally drinking. It was raining non-stop, so we were cooped up in my sister-in-law’s trailer, and drinks were taking the edge off the boredom. My daughter noticed that while everyone else got pretty tipsy, I seemed “normal”. She said she was so happy and proud of me!
My kids have seen that my drinking has declined over the past several months, but we haven’t really talked openly about it, nor have I mentioned TSM to them. But Friday night, after my youngest broke the ice, I explained how I had been doing TSM, etc., etc. I don’t think she really cares about TSM (maybe a bit too young), but she sees that I’m no longer a drunk, and whatever works is OK with her. I suppose I’ll try to find the right time to bring up TSM with my oldest daughter, but she is stressed out about so many things in her life right now, like starting college. One thing is for sure: whatever I tell my youngest will eventually be told to my oldest. They are too close for secrets.
I think I’m starting to get the courage to open up about TSM in general. I found out a couple weeks ago that my step brother was in rehab (in lieu of jail), so I shared all I could about TSM with my step mother, and she is interested – hopefully he will be too, but “getting caught” is far different from admitting you have a real problem with alcohol. I’ve heard that a long ago friend we used to hang with has “given up on life” because of his drinking. It’s awkward, since I haven’t seen him in 20 years, but I’m going to try to find him and tell him about TSM. So far, when I’ve tried to talk about TSM with people who know someone in trouble, they shy away – don’t want to get involved. I think I’ll have to contact the alcoholics directly. Seems the old “takes one to know one” saying might be true in this case. I applaud those of you who are promoting TSM, some not even caring about being anonymous. I don’t know if I’ll ever be that courageous, but I’ll do whatever I can from behind the scenes for the general public, and I’ll try my best to convince any alcoholics I find that TSM is the answer.
Cheers to TSM and all of you for your endless support!
