D2M
Let me elaborate on my earlier post
1) Your daily consumption is approximately 8-10 times the safe MAXIMUM level for women. I'm sure you know it, but this is a level that will kill you or irreperably damange your health sooner rather than later.
2) At this level, the withdrawal symptoms are likely to be downright dangerous - going dry for a day and ESPECIALLY for a 2 week period could bring on fatal consequences
3) Your statement that "he is the type of husband who would forbid me and prevent me " does not to me sound very healthy. Are you comfortable with power disparity in your relationship? What are the consequences of you disobeying?
4) "My husband hates alcohol and does not realise how much I drink - he hardly realises I drink at all."
a) why does he hate alcohol?
b) how can your husband not realise you drink a significant amount? He must surely realise that you drink alcohol each day. What about all the empty bottles?
c) are you comfortable keeping such a big secret/hiding your habit from your husband?
d) how would he feel if he knew?
you, like the rest of us on TSM, have a major challenge to face with regard to your drinking. Adding the above problems to the mix is not going to help you IMO.