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Hi all, I am so grateful to those that started this site. Thank you. I am posting to send encouragement to those feeling discouraged (including myself), and I ask those who are experiencing progress, even small progress, to please post. This site needs more of that. I am at about week 28. During that time my intake has averaged 1.2 - 1.6 bottles of white wine a day and I haven't had one alcohol free day. I have been drinking heavily for 13 years. Looking at the numbers my intake hasn't changed much, although in the last three weeks there has been a slight decrease. (I have a non-scientific theory that the longer we have had the habit, the longer it takes NAL to show major decreases). What HAS happened is that my thinking about alcohol has changed significantly. Seven months ago when I drank I drank to get buzzed, and I really got buzzed when I drank. Over the months slowly I have started to feel less interest in being buzzed, and when I drink, I don't get as buzzed. My hangovers have slowly lessened. More often after I take NAL I don't really want to drink. The drinking is beginning to feel like a bad habit, rather than a serious addiction. Increasingly I find myself NOT wanting to do things under the influence, NOT wanting to be around people who are drinking, and find myself enjoying doing things sober. So, despite the fact that my numbers aren't changing dramatically, something is definitely happening, and I don't think it is just that I am happier for some reason. I feel happier because alcohol seems to be moving from front and center in my brain, to the background. I still have a way to go, and often feel discouraged and impatient, but today I am choosing to believe that focusing on the number of units we drink may not be the best way to measure progress. Maybe it is better to take a broad look at our thoughts and feelings about alcohol. Have they changed? Not so long ago the thought of being sober made me feel panicy, now sobriety seems...well..attractive! I used to look at people who didn't drink as boring, now I admire their health and vitailty.
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