Hello all - perhaps some of you can relate to this! I'm pretty frustrated and a bit boggled.
Just a little overview - I started on April 16th. Initially, I found that the pills gave me anxiety and made me very jumpy; so I reduced my dose to 25mg ( my doctor said that was an option as long as I was still feeling the benefits). During this time, I felt I was still feeling the benefits, and initially saw my drinking drastically reduced. I was abstinent for 3 months befre starting, so perhaps that made it easier also.
However, around end of May, I increased my dose to 50mg as I felt that the cravings were coming back. Since then, I’ve been able to moderate and never drink more than 2 glasses, about 5 days a week. However, the drinking has progressively made me feel absolutely terrible in the mornings, quite hungover and very depressed. I’ve gotten to a point where I just want to stop drinking altogether because the aftermath is so bad - but I don’t want to disrupt my treatment - I do hope to get to where drinking is a nonissue for me, and I only imbibe a few times a year at the most - but right now I still get cravings every day and I give in to them, only to suffer bad hangovers & depression the next day. Again, I never drink more than 2, and usually I just have one, and I always drink wine.
So - do you guys think I should just hang in there, hangovers & depression, and keep pushing through? Or should I try to manage the cravings on my own and cut drinking out? I know the whole idea is not to have to white knuckle your way through life, but the process in the meantime has become a bit tough. For example - I had 1/2 glass of red wine last night and woke up depressed, hungover and late for work because I overslept (BTW - even before treatment, I’ve alwasy been one of those people that get hangovers very easily.).
So - stick with it or throw in the towel due to the "aftermath"? I'm seeing my doctor this week about it.
Xo ER
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