Longtimers, Forgive me, but I'm asking for help A G A I N. Newcomers, Let this be a lesson to not ever stop talking Nal. I am sincerely afraid of failing again, but I suppose my life is worth the embarrassment and humility. Why is that little tiny pill so hard for me to take. I have got to have the courage to take it. (I wish I had a courage pill that wasn't addictive, lol) I just posted in New introduce yourself because each time I try this, I feel like I'm starting over. I thought I wouldn't post until I had a couple of months success under my belt, but I need the support and the calming effect that writing about my troubles gives me. A while back, I was going to post that moderating without the Nal was working for me, but obviously it wasn't. I just switched from a daily drinker to a twice weekly binger, which apparently is actually harder on your body. Go figure!
I just spoke with the hubby about making a commitment to take the pill and to not partake in functions where there is too much temptation to override my desire to change. I can't take the pill for a few days because I had 1/2 a vicodin on Saturday, but that won't be a problem since I can go 3-4 days AF fairly easily. My best attempt at TSM was last year where I was seeing progress at 4-6 weeks. A Thanksgiving family function involving never ending booze did me in. We are going on a 17 day trip and I can take the Nal before dinner. A rehab sort of vacation. Hmm. It should be good for me to be doing fun things and taking the Nal. I figure it might make me numb and dull, but dull is good for me when it comes to drinking. Besides, I won't be alone to wallow in my misery and my hubby helps me limit my intake. Lets hope and pray that I can ease in with limited side effects and stick with TSM for the rest of my life. Please help me stay strong, Hugs and tears, Keek

good luck to you ke ke . When I have time I will look up your old posts. And yes thank you for coming back because it is a good reminder.

Newlife

Thanks for the reply new life. I was just hanging out with the hubby and booking the last of our vacation when the notion of waiting until the vacation was over before starting the Nal. Not a good idea. Damn, Damn, Damn! Note to self. "Take the freaking pill"... I'm sure I will remember more of the vacation if I don't drink so much. Trying to stay strong (and realistic)

Don't be afraid, Keek.

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.
--Marie Curie

Maybe you will come to understand why taking the pill is so hard for you, and can make a change that will make a difference.

Rooting for you,

Dee

Hi Keek,

I tried to get the pill before we went to Greece this last may. And I didn't. I got drunk, had a big fight with my husband and it would have been much better with nal.

I hope you get some before you go,if not,just try your best.

Thank you Keeks, thank you for coming back and being persistent.

KeKe,

Yes, thank you for returning!

Do not wait, for there will always be a reason not to take that pill!

My husband has never said anything about my drinking, but I explained this process to him and I told him that I have to take this pill for life 1 hour before I drink. Sunday night when I was getting a glass of wine he asked if I took my pill and has it been an hour . He likes the fact my drinking is down and doesn't want me back to the way I was.

Would it be helpful to have your husbands support? Or would that make you angry and in the end to become defiant? I am just trying to think of ways to help you into the practice of taking that pill.

I agree with Deena about trying to understand why you don't want to take that pill, I know that you said it is because you miss that feeling, but it might be something more. It is just a thought.

Keep posting,

Jaba

TSM can be a very effective way to get drinking under control, or stop drinking if that's the goal. My observation of people's progress or lack thereof with TSM is that those who make a commitment to change their behavior, and their relationship with alcohol can succeed.

Continuing to drink to excess, not making any behavior or habit changes, and nothings going to change.

If people are unwilling to look into why they drink, to change their habits, and reduce their drinking in a meaningful way, then even thinking TSM is going to work is just plain crazy.

I wish you the best of luck, but your track record indicates that you aren't willing to follow the program, therefore why would you expect to get anywhere ?

Guapo,

You do make an excellent point, one I think I need to take to heart as well. For it is more than just taking that pill!


Jaba

Yes, BUT it all starts with that. Keke, if you don't do ANYTHING else, right now, just do that. Just take that pill one hour before you drink and keep doing that. That has to happen.

Newlife