I have little to no interest in this drink in front of me. I only had a beer and a half yesterday. I'm on my second beer tonight. I won't drink anymore this rest of this week. I am pushing myself to drink less and less each week. I never really thought I would be completely abstinent. I have tried to be abstinent in the past and it never worked. But now the thing I never thought possible is visible on the horizon. Total abstinence. This beer is completely uninteresting. I had a flash of insight the other day at work. I had a thought about drinking and was mildly amused that I hadn't thought about drinking all night up until that point. I remembered the first time I tasted beer. I was 9 and my uncle was babysitting me and my brothers. He was drinking beer and I wanted to try it. He let me take a sip. I remembered the taste of metalic, earthy, carbonated cold water. It was an alien taste that was anticlimactic. I couldn't understand why my uncle and my dad were always drinking this boring beverage. As I was at work thinking about having a beer it was this thought that came to mind; that awful first taste. Not the fun and carefree times. Not the lost, random hours at bars surrounded by happy strangers. None of the things I used to love about alcohol. I could only recall that awful taste. I am dumping the rest of this beer out. I am done tonight.


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How lovely to read your post Goatmaster ! The Nal is doing its thing ! I am so pleased for you. And thanks for letting us know - it is always heartening to read of someone really doing well on the Nal and gives others hope !

Hugs, Maggie

Ah I remember my first beer too. I was probably 8 years old and my cousin and I who had a chemistry of trouble between us, stole a couple beers out of our fathers coolers and snuk off into the woods to try it out. OMG it was gross. I think I remember pouring it out. None the less I guess there was something intriguing about it. The next one I remember I was a little older maybe 13. I was over a friends house watching football or something like that and he asked me if I wanted a beer. It jsut seemed so much like the adult thing to do. Even back then I grew up watching movies where all the adults did was pour drinks and smoke. It's what you do. So of course I said sure I'll have a beer. I think it was a Michelob and I remember my friend saying it tasted like Weasel piss hahahahha. I actually do remember getting a buzz off of that beer and losing that sense of control for the first time. By High School the alcohol began to flow regularly though I did give it up for about two years and only smoked weed and dropped acid you know because alcohol is bad for you

Anyway I'm glad to hear that goat! For me drinking is no longer a problem but I still have a hankering for a good beer. I've always enjoyed a well made craft beer but now it's more akin to liking a nice piece of chocolate cake or something.

Good for you Goatmaster!! It is WORKING!! WOO HOO!! Newlife

Yay for you Goatmaster.... you're giving those of us still struggling real hope!

Keep on Keeping on!

MinneMom

Great news and I also remember that nasty taste of my dad's pabst blue ribbon down in the cellar! And it was warm. One of the few beers I tossed out before NAL!