It is my 4 month anniversary. Forgive me as I will ramble on a little. I feel I am going through a much less intense version of the rollercoaster that my little invisible friends are going through and I will try to make sense of it with the usual metaphors and allegories.
First my brief history. I'm a lucky one. Instant responder with nearly no side effects.I immediately lost the endorphin rush of AL, my body and brain figured that out and I was ecstatic. In control. Made new rules to live by, lost weight, didn't die of diabetes...all good.
4 months later...still here but not so elated. Why? What changed. Uh... Still have that previously elusive control? Uh..yeah, I guess. So whats the rub? Uh..kinda in a rut, I guess.
Metaphor: Ever go on a diet for 4 months and get real religious about it. You eat greens and smoothies and drop soda and NEVER eat hamburgers. After 4 months you get on a scale and you lost 2 lbs. 2LBS!!! THAT'S IT??!! AFTER 4 MONTHS!?! I fully expected to drop 20 YEARS!! And I'm still in this apartment spending way too much time on forums and such. GAH!!...I need a life! And I can still taste fried chicken in my mouth if I think about it!
Ok. Did the NAL do its job? Uh..I guess. Do you still have control? Uh..yeah. Is that still a big deal compared to NOT having ANY control? Well..yeah..but....I guess I wanted more.
So. This kind of thinking would be more understandable had I gone through months of SE's while waiting for some elusive change. But I was a lucky one. I believe I am due a beechslap. Girls get in line. So on my anniv I will proceed to get off my fat lazy butt and go enjoy some life. Maybe. You have about 30 min to form beechslap line

Love, Steve.

Forgive me as I will ramble on a little.

OLD people do tend to ramble - anyway - I need to go back and read the rest of your post .... LOL

I somehow knew Maggs would be at the front of the line.

WHAT happened to my next post? I posted the best post in the world and it has disappeared !!! Let me go and look for it !!!!

Steve - you do ask for it sometimes !!!! Eat greens, have smoothies, never eat hamburgers - THAT is my life !!!! I LOVE greens and smoothies and am a veggie !!! But I also am slim ! Despite the Guinness ! Often wonder how !! So - re your conundrum ...... you have only been in this for 4 months ! That is not long at all! I am 7 months in and am still struggling. I am prepared to keep plodding on for another year and not seeing results - if that is what it takes to be cured ! You have been lucky to be where you are by now - but if you want more, then join the club .... get in line and start waiting.

MUCH love and many hugs to you my friend,

Hugs, Maggie x

Found it !!! LOL XXX

ROTFLMBO !!!! Love you too Steve !!!!

Hi Steven! Thanks for sharing! I was laughing throughout reading your entire post. I sense a little sarcasm and a lot of humor! Sounds like things are under control, and for that, I am happy for you.
I can totally relate with doing things religiously for periods of time and then completely throwing them out the window, and eating the biggest hamburger known to man.

I'm trying to make my healthier habits a "lifestyle" now instead of just something I do for a couple weeks.
I guess I will let everyone know how that goes.... .... ...

go ahead and enjoy yourself some life, and congrats on your 4 month anniversary!

Carli

Steven - your progress is fantastic! But I do understand that you might feel that change was not as radical as you expected. It is the same when we make another transformation, like loosing a lot of weight. We think that after that life will be radically different - we will attract new lovers, have better career etc. When nothing like that happens, we might feel a little sad. However, change did happen - only not in the way that the whole life would change.

Yes - I agree that maybe getting away from the computer might help.

Best wishes!

You all slap like little girls. I half expected Ronda Rousey.