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Wow. Just read your story. 35 years without a day off is pretty remarkable. You must have really good genes to even be alive. Still, I can see how you would just break down in tears of hope when you think that, finally, your life might change. I know that feeling of being in a rut where you think, "Well, I guess this is it and nothing new is going to happen and I'll die this way," only to have something show up in your life that radically changes it all (for me, too, it was TSM).
The "boredom" thing is not something I ever experienced, but I can see how it could be a real problem. For me, the first thing I did to occupy my sober time was take up reading again -- I hadn't read a book in 9 years last January. Depending on what you read, this AS WELL can just further the Personal Renaissance -- I read some great marriage books, several "manosphere" books (e.g. The Rational Male by Tomassi -- great book), books on the Roman Empire, the Spartans, Samurai, spirituality, etc... I'm a much, much stronger person because of all the reading and working out, but none of it could have happened while I was still drinking every night. I also started exercising at night -- at a local gym at the time (now I built a garage gym). I'd either swim or life weights or do something nice and "clean fun"-like. It really did take awhile to start to form new habits / routines (mine was after a 9 year run, 35 years would be even tougher). 15 months later, and I never, ever experience boredom. I've got too much stuff going on (relationships [wife and kids], hobbies, exercise, reading, not to mention myriad tv shows I haven't watched). I'll never run out of stuff to do.
In some ways, drinking actually MAKES for boredom for me, because it severely limits my activities -- can't read, can't workout, can't play hard games, can't concentrate, etc...
RE: Why is no one here? Do they just get cured and move on? There was a debate about this last year, with one side arguing that the number of actually "cured" is quite small apart from the controlled clinic in Norway (or wherever) setting wherein "The Cure for Alcoholism" got its data. I'd venture that a pretty large fraction of people that start out here actually are NOT cured, primarily because they give up, don't have the personal motivation to really quit, or any other reason (I also recall arguing that Americans, the British, and Australians that make up the bulk of this website are not as strong in fortitude and character as northern Europeans that experience the 80% cure). Unfortunately, there's just no way to actually tell and, you know what, it doesn't even matter. What matters is only ME and YOU and how we do with Naltrexone. It may simply be that a small remnant of lucky ones is able to escape the scourge of alcoholism.
I'll take it.
_________________ 30+ Years of Compulsive, Secret Drinking Did TSM 1/13-6/13 and snapped the addiction Quit TSM and got re-addicted. Goal=No Al, No Nal
Jan = 0 Drinks, 31 AF Feb = 15 Drinks, 23 AF Mar = 0 Drinks, 31 AF April = 0 Drinks, 30 AF May = 0 Drinks, 31 AF
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