Hello, so I've been watching and lurking around here waiting for my Nal to arrive.
I doubt that this will help anyone, but I think it will be cathartic for me. Hope you don't mind. So, I'm drunk. Got off work early and went to my best friends house. Was feeling a burning in my upper stomach, like I have been feeling off and on since gallbladder surgery in July.
Today was definitely worse though. Got to her house, ate some crackers and then proceded to
Drink a bottle and a half between us, no food for me. I smoked several cigs, even tho it made
It worse. Drove home pretty drunk and poured myself a glass of wine.
What is wrong with me??? Why do I do this?

Well, I did it before NAL because I loved to drink and craved it! I did the sames things as you, drank, smoked, drove home drunk, etc.

Have you read The Cure for Alcoholism? It explains a lot.

I'm smiling at your post because in the beginning when I first came onto this website I was always drinking.....now I'm usually not!

I think maggiemay hit it on the head. We love to drink and we crave it. If that weren't true, we wouldn't be in this mess of needing to quit.

As far as why we do that -- well, I think we've trained ourselves to believe that alcohol is the best form of happiness/pleasure available to us at the moment. It probably isn't really, but we've spent years reinforcing the idea that it is and also reinforcing the brain pathways which make us love and crave it. Soooo, here we are.