Hi all, I finally started Naltrexone last week. My units pre TSM were > 90 units per week (daily drinking) mostly drinking until blackout. In May I tried total abstinence which was successful for almost 4 months until total disaster in September. Since then i was bingeing about twice a week until blackout. This week I have drank 4 times with no black outs, total units 31, 3 AF days with minimal struggle . I feel the units are immaterial compared with the control/lack of compulsion i feel I have regained (I pray this continues and isn't a honeymoon). Prior to TSM i was reluctant to go out because I didn't want to have to deal with the shame afterwards and similarly neither did my partner want me to accompany her anywhere for same reason. Tonight my partner suggested we go to a trivia night for her work sometime soon. She wouldn't have done this in the last 5 years. Tommorrow I m going to a 20 year school reunion and am really lloking forward to it. Before TSM i was really unsure because its being held at a beer cafe (with 300 different beers on tap) but with Naltrexone on board I m confident I can attend, enjoy and make it home in one piece. This is much easier than AA, more dignified, more positively affirming, less shaming and makes more sense. I am a health professional and understand the neuropharmacology involved intricately. It makes so much sense and i had such confidence after reading the book this week has just cemented those feelings. I know i'm still an embryonic TSM but here's to hoping it continues (until extinction)!
