oh lord - now do I really need this?? LOL

But I do have some things to say and post...we shall see. Starting this at the 5month mark and no changes at all. Upped my doseage to 75 mgs tonight. We shall see. I am out of touch weekends as I work at a country club, and next week taking my kids to a hill country resort...la dee da

Am keeping my fingers crossed the upped doseage will make a difference...please keep yours crossed for me as well. In all seriousness, this "cure" has been a huge hope for me. I have been on a roller coaster in the last few months ( since month 3) when it was suggested "something definite" should have been felt at this point.

Nope. Nip. Nada. So we shall see...

I've got my fingers crossed for you

houtx, don't know what to say, I really feel your dilemma. I too am so tried of this addiction, but every day it starts all over again. I try to take 50 mgs 2 x a day but I really never do that. And with my pattern it would be helpful I believe.

What made you think to up your dose to 75 mgs? Just curious cause some other people were writing about that too.

I want change, and I have been taking the baclofen 20 mgs at bed and I am goimg to up it and continue using naltrexone.
As a result, today I did not really feel like drinking wine, so I drank a drink with vodca , then on to the wine.
Why am I drinking if I do not want to?

So, I totally understand you frustration. ARHHHHH!!!!!

But as they say, let's keep going, "perseverance furthers."



For what it's worth....

Houtx, so sorry I didn't read this til now. I am sure you won't get this til you return from your trip. I feel for you since I am thinking the same way and will be interested to see if the 75mg. will help you to lower your units. I too have been thinking along those lines.

I tell you what: the 75 mg. was the 'magic bullet' for me! Yesterday at my usual starting point (was 1 p.m. then 2 p.m., recently more around 3 p.m.) I didn't feel AT ALL like drinking. Of course it was a Friday so we were planning to go out - but I didn't even care much about that (unheard of - I am a party girl). Finally around 6:30 p.m. me and BF took our Nal, and had our first drink at home an hour later. Pfffffttt. . .

Went to our little hangout and had another, then to our other little hangout for dinner, and had another drink with some close friends. Across the street to hear some live music. . .Altogether I had 6 drinks. Came home, and skipped the nightcap. Helloooo??? Skipped the nightcap???? Oh yes, and because the place with the music doesn't carry good wine I ordered a shot of schnapps - and left some of that on the bar.

Yes, 6 drinks is more than enough - but half or less of what I would ordinarily drink on a weekend night. What is really amazing is that until about the 3rd drink, I really didn't enjoy the wine. Except for it being a habit, I would have been just as satisfied drinking a soda.

I know I'm still in for some roller coaster stuff, but believe that before long a 'spike' will be drinking at this level. I can live with that!

G4More said above:I really didn't enjoy the wine. Except for it being a habit, I would have been just as satisfied drinking a soda.



This is so very true for me too! I don't really want it but something still allows me to drink it and I'd rather drink some coconut juice or something else.

Love you girls being here! Especially right now you, G4M with our shared new upped doseage. I love hearing every little detail about your cravings and consumption. I am sooooo on a new wave of hope & enthusiasm. I read other stuff on here and thinking, well...maybe I should've just kept on w/ the 50 mgs for 6,8,12 months...who knows. But I want to feel the changes NOW! I am tired of my drunk self about 11:00 every night. I worry about meeting someone and still being addicted - the gotta have a glass before/during/after - I just want to feel what Springer/N101CS/Potato/Lena/etc feel...mostly, most of the time.

It's funny, isn't it, how we KNOW & FEEL these little changes & pick up on them so accutely?! The leaving of a half glass by the bed, the not having a night cap, the forgetting where you left the glass...I am SOOOOO grateful to have you people on here who KNOW that's right! Who acknowledge the little ****!! It's really important and sooooo sooooooo comforting to have this group!! Love you peeps!! :-)

Hi houtx,

My fingers (and toes) are well and truly crossed for you! You and I seem to be in the same boat (although I did see some improvement last week). I know how you feel but try to get in touch with your source of inner strength. Remain hopeful and hang on in there!

All the very best.

V.

Houty !

Take yer NAL at 75mg , it'll do you the power of good .
Luv ya too .
Elf .

Thx all -
Love the "houty" nickname. Have been thinking about changing my moniker...have got too much personal info floating around here and starting to send one or two people this way...thinking more anonymity would be good.

Don't really want to be a flashing neon light of recognition...houty, HT, godiva (my usual, as in "Go Diva") are thoughts...will continue to ponder then ask N101CS or Lena how to do it. Anyway - thx for the support. Yes, I am upbeat, and in that I usually see the glass as half full...onward & upward.

WTE - you crack me up w/ what you do and then claiming to have no life! Love the story here about the boytoys/shirts & fees!! LOLOL But yup - no love life for me either. My FWB/Michigan man...got laid off from his job the day we got back!!! GAWD!!! How can I cut him off at this juncture in his life?? I had to go over there tonight to exchange putters and he was all huggy/needy & soooo freaking ooky: "I need your support/I need hugs/oh it feels good to hold you" F'ing bullshit....

GAWD!!!!!! Must I really play this part??? For how long?? ICKMO!!!!! He knows - he is just forcing it. I told him my busy, traveling schedule the next few weeks & he was all "Well, where do I factor into this?/Am I going to see you?/ Call me sometime!" etctetctetc

I just want to break up with him - with what I never thought of as a relationship to begin with. GACK - now here he is umemployed - and I need to pull the plug!!! UGH!!!!

Think I will do as I have always done: avoid it!! LOL Any advice from the guys out there?? Would appreciate it. I have been upfront w/ this man from the start...friends, my heart isn't into it, am seeing other people...still he hangs on, I have not been firm, now he is truly acting in love, needy...and newly unemployed!!! I don't want to do this any more!!! BLAH - what do I do ( I know) but when??!!

oh boo hoo!! The good news is, tomorrow I am going on another vacay, people! Just me n' the kids...check it out: Westin La Contera/ San Antonio, TX. Eat your hearts out!! LOLOL Spending my hard-earned summer school $$ but will be way fun doing all there is to do!

Check w/ you all later this week. XXXOOO