Oh my, you are one fireball, dynamic lady! Perhaps I'm not really qualified to be your big sista, after all, (unless you were adopted from more exciting stock than mine). I mean, flying? dancing? zumba? Wow, impressive! I love the way the way you take stock of a situation, make decisions, and even more important - IMPLEMENT them - wow! You have set in motion some really positive ideas, to rearrange your setting, the backdrop for your life.

You're doing a great job running your life, and Nal will keep trudging along for you in the background, doing whatever the heck it is that it does. I appreciate all the info you provided today, so that I can add a lot of mental visual images to your story line...now I just need to know what kind of dog Max is, so I can assign his avatar. And as for YOU...I'm getting a very strong mental avatar of...Marisa Tomei, am I right? She is a favorite of mine, for being energetic, unique, talented...Zippy, you're a dead ringer, right?

Really, you are doing so very well, and as always, it is a pleasure to read your updates...I especially smile when I read your oft-repeated statement that you like your life, SO refreshing! Yep, life IS good...we're just sorting out a few details now...

Chrissie

Hello Zippy,

Oh yes, it sounds like your attitude of gratitude has helped you so much. I like you are way too hard on myself and the hardest thing to do is to just say STOP! Just like everyone else, you deserve to be happy and healthy. Lord knows you are making such a great effort to do so. Don't worry you will get there. Just keep going, you're doing all the right things.

Hi Zippy

I found your recent posts truly inspirational, so thanks! So you are/were a pilot. So sorry to hear you had to sell your plane. How cool to have actually owned one though and maybe you will again one day.

I too am very good at beating myself up. At times I need to take a step back and remember that we can't go back and relive any of our life so we need to try and have fun and make the most of it as we go along. It sounds like you have had a very stressful time of it with divorce, financial issues and job change. But you are doing all the right things, TSM included.

I like dancing too and do a class at my gym called Sh-Bam, which is like zumba apparently. I love it.

That's a bugger you've lost your appetite. I am a small build too and find I no longer eat as many sweet things since starting TSM. Still weigh the same - I've just replaced sweet things with alcohol. LOL!

Keep up the good work and keep smiling
Sticky

I'm trying a double quote here lets see if I figured it out....

Chrissie!!! Max is an English Cocker Spaniel, fawn and white. When he was a pup he reminded me of a macadama nut cookie, started out calling him cookie, not a good name for a dog if you know what I mean. Then decided Mac, but Mac kept coming out Max and it stuck. He is my hero! I tried putting up an avitar of him on the site, I couldn't because the option was disabled. I couldn't figure out how to able it. Any suggestions? I have a really cute picture of him with a headset on, he loves going flying with me.

Marisa Tomei, not close, I'm cutier no not really. I love her too, definately on my favoriate list, don't see to much of her lately. My boyfriend would say differently, he's a bit biased.

It's been a few days and hit my all time low last week!!! Looking at my numbers encouraged me this morning for a couple of reasons: 1) the past two weeks it's been steady in the thirties, have to believe this is easier on my body 2) feeling more in control of how much I drink, with exception of one day, had a party with me myself and I, drinking a liter of white wine. I was dancing on the table! The next day was a kick, still feeling drunk half the day.

Life is a kick, loving every minute of it! And loving myself through it all, man o man it feels good!

Zippy's Smiling

Wahoo, I figured it out!!!

I have to check it out, I can't tell you how much better I'm feeling by just adding a little thing back into my life. I'm just enjoying what it's doing for my mental state, anything else is just an added bonus. Cardio work and perhaps tightening up my rear end.

Same here, I use to eat sweets like there's going to be an end, it was ridiculous. My eating habits have taken a 180, I am eating much healthier, and feeling really good.

Super Bowl Sunday, having a couple of friends over, making tacos and other goodies. Really looking forward to it, I can't believe this weather we're having. Unbelievable for February in Michigan.

Zip Smiles

English Cocker Spaniel??? No way! Between Zippy being cuter than Marisa Tomei & Max not being a Jack Russell, I give up...please select suitable avatars, and I'll upload them to my brain. But just remember, I've got dibs on Kristin Scott Thomas...

I just saw M.T. w/ Geo. Clooney in the Ides of March...George was not a Good Person, which was kind of disheartening. But MAN!!! I'm getting WAY off topic: back to Super Bowl Sunday. Where I live, our teams are so awful we don't even observe or acknowledge the Super Bowl, OR the World Series...we are bitter, very bitter, that we are never included. Zippy, I was glad to hear mention of the BF, because I was wondering how that was going - but you know me; I would never ask nosey questions.

No, really, a lot of people here sound light-hearted and confident today, 'cause good things ARE going on - Nal is meeting our needs at different (appropriate) levels, as we are all in different stages of TSM. I'm very appreciative of this beautiful day, and exactly the place I am!

Chrissie

Chrissie! Where are you I need your spirit this morning beating myself up for overdoing it the past couple days. Got this idea from Hessler. Here's Max...

https://mail.google.com/mail/u/0/?ui=2&ik=019fdefc4b&view=att&th=1355841f3f8d291f&attid=0.1&disp=inline&safe=1&zw

Didn't quite work like I wanted it to, copy and paste the link in your web browser address line, Max's picture will come up.

Anyways, time to get honest here, I really did myself in the past couple days, damn that White wine. Again picking myself up and moving on, going to think positive and turn this around into a good thing. Called in sick yesterday, I really wanted a day off to spend with BF he works on Saturday so his days off is Sunday and Monday. Had his sister and her husband over for the game Sunday and had a great time. Actually watched the game, LOVED Madonna, the best half time show in a long time, best my team won!!! Go Giants. I use to watch football all the time forgot how much I like it.

I don't know what happens the best way I can sum it up is I just have such a good time I forget about the damage and how I'll feel the next day. I felt like sh*t Monday so took my nal early so I could have a drink to feel better. Ended up finishing off the box of wine I bought for Sunday. Damn it, Damn it, Damn it...

Onward to making it a good day!!!

Zippy

Hey Zippy -- Sorry you're feeling bad today. I sure do understand it tho. For so many of us, TSM is like one-and-a-half steps forward, then one back.

I'm having one of those days too. Just try to block out the negative voice as best you can. Ups and downs are part of the process. The downs are no fun. But there's nothing for it but to keep on being.

You'll get there!

My dear Miss Zip-Zip:

A) GOOD FOR YOU, taking a nal in the morning - it was the absolute best/only thing you could do, since you knew you'd be drinking. You stayed w/in the "rules" (the Rule, rather), so you did absolutely nothing wrong.

B) GOOD ON YOU, telling all here, because this lets you be acknowledged by your friends here, and set straight, and yes, you can go on and put this behind you. You are the Comeback Queen, you can do it!

As I said recently in another thread (and I'm big into recycling, even w/ words ), you hear about TSM and it just sounds too good to be true! But then you get into the actual process, and you realize a lot of it is (almost) too AWFUL to TOLERATE. Meaning. that roller coaster can be quite cruel! Esp. after a period of success, where you think "I'm finally getting somewhere!" Sometimes I feel like Charlie Brown trying to kick that freakin' football... (for any non-deep thinkers out there, "Lucy" represents "Alcohol" )

Zippy, you are very good at bouncing back, and I bet you're already regrouping. You've got a number of fans here, and we will all enjoy seeing YOU - and ALL of us - get to our goals. And then lets meet up in Hawaii and Par-Tay. So everybody be lookin' for a Groupon to Hawaii.

Chrissie

Heya Big Sis!!!

You always make me smile and BTW that box of wine was worth 4 bottles thats 28 units, I am so disguested. The way I'm feeling today it was NOT worth it, tried to go into work thinking I'll start feeling better no way felt sicker. I have to remember this pain so I won't want to do this anymore. I had a good time Sunday, Monday was a push trying to feel better then over doing it. Thank God I have an awsome boss at least I'm able to get some work done from home.

Thinking back, right on Chrissie, I am the come back queen. I won't stay down for long.

Gotta get my mind onto something fun. Just read Hess's reply on how to put up an image, so here it goes:



Here's Max!!!