Hi everyone and Happy New Year!
My wish for this year is that every single person who has ever struggled with alcohol, experiences what I have with TSM!
I'm sorry for not posting in so long, life seems to have taken over

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I still have nothing but good to say. Despite drinking every day over the Christmas period, I never had more than 3 dl of wine (there are 7.5 dl in a bottle) in a sitting and while I throughly enjoyed every glass, I never felt like having more, like eating a nice meal, I always came to the point when I was "full" -I'd had enough, I had no desire to drink more. Even after 7 months, I still relish that feeling of Enough!
My morale and general state of mental health has improved immensely, I think this is due to the fact that I now know that my addiction was purely bio-chemical, and not a moral failing or lack of willpower, as I had believed. This knowledge has taken a huge weight off my shoulders! I don't feel guilty and ashamed anymore, I feel "normal" (even though I can't define what normal is) and as a normal person, I don't feel the need to scrutinise my personality and relationships and childhood to find out where I went wrong, because I now know that I didn't go wrong, just as someone who needs glasses doesn't go wrong, it just is. That's not to say that I now consider myself a perfect person, I don't and I'm not! But I don't consider myself worse than the general population anymore, I know I have my faults like everyone else.
I hope to live to see the day when psychologically damaging institutions like AA and their ilk are banished and addiction and other compulsive behaviours are treated solely with medication, education and cognitive intervention. Telling people that they are addicted for life and that things will only get worse if they drink, is counter productive, that make us live in fear and guilt and shame, it's disabling. We have the ability to take control of our addiction, all we need is a little chemical help and knowledge! We should be enabling addicts to take control, we should be teaching them that they
can take control, not that they can't. AA&Co. are sending out, not only a wrong message, but a destructive one!
To everyone here who is struggling, take heart! You
can and
will take control of your drinking, believe it and it will happen!
Curi.