With any luck I'll be done soon and finished with this thread. The last couple of weeks I've been flying low in safe drinking airspace and only lack of confidence that it's just a bright spell keeps me from shouting "cured " because God knows it feels so unusual to be so intensely stable with alcohol.
I'll briefly resume the last weeks to point up the seachange that augurs well and it does hinge on attitude .
The six month closed with an upturn , daily drinking and just one AF that prompted me to double check my goals and in the name of gaining control I saw them as
1 being able to do a "7" week without alc and no knuckling and
2. Drink say 5/6 times a month .
And having then just drunk six days out of seven I wasn't feeling that happy . So the following week (27) , I exchanged my Six drinking days for Six AF's and announced it in my signature as I was so delighted . Despite the delight
I was counting too much on this particular vector and missing the real treasure
which I spotted in week 28 . I supose increased Af's or drinking/craving greatly less
are both symptoms of the huge change and you can't have them both at once.
So in week 28 craving just fell to the floor (level 0 or 1) then I'd drink usually 3 glasses max . This situation has been maintained for some ten days .
The chief problem I have now is " bizarre" behaviour

As when I went to the supermarket and spent ages gathering different alcoholic drinks not to increase the quantity but to ensure a choice because I just couldn't get really enthusiastic about drinking , each bottle I imagined how it'd be and felt luke warm so kept adding more bottles , when I realized the absurdity it felt so daft that i began to put them all back and walked out empty handed . A satisfied customer
Many analogies could serve but the one that appeals to me is how an amputee
still has sensations from the lost limb although it no longer exists . Alcohol has left such a stain on my thinking , a ghostly pall in my psyche that makes me still haunt the booze aisles of supermarkets - at least for the meantime . Oh well , that's ok ,
could be alot worse !
