Thanks Guys! I love you man! I went back to Drs.. And she had not removed the whole varmint. Saw another Dr. who took out the rest of him. I was ready to puke. I wondered why the area wasn't healing after all this time. OMG!! I think all is fine now, just finished the anti-biotics. So thank you all for your concern. Weirdo, you crack me up! A drunk woodtick.
I have not been hitting any sauce since Kenny was here. Have no craving & it still doesn't taste good. Not keeping strick account but I know it has diminished considerably!! Oh well, time will tell as is with all bingers.
I'm Baaaaack!!
ALWAYS, JANE

Hi all, I'm here to tell all of you the program works! Still not going to get cocky yet. Haven't been on a bender since I can not remember. I did have quite a bit to drink when my Brother-in-law was here over a month ago. My drinking & drinking patterns have improved tremendously!! Have no desire or strong cravings at all for a while yet. I am putting forth some effort but it hasn't been difficult. Probably had about 4 Al drinks in 2 wks.!! WHEN I'm cured I WILL get cocky & I WILL shout from rooftops!! Stick with it. Be strong, & above all try to maintain a POSITIVE outlook. Repeat all positive things into your head even if you don't believe it yet. It will sink in. Even at your lowest of lows, climb out & claim victory. Believe in your self. (I know how hard that is). Your all good people with powerful souls. Seize that.
I Love All You Guys, Thanks For Your Support, & May You Find Your Pot of Gold!!
Always, Jane

That's such an awesome post Jane! Thanks and Congrats for feeling so good about this!

Ditto!

Hi All. Knew there was a reason not to get cocky. Not cured yet is the best one. Even tho I consider myself a binge drinker when I do drink, I can go long periods of time without craving it, or wanting to. I wonder how long total extinction will takr for me. I know there's others on this thread asking the same questions. I wish I knew.
So here's a little humor. All us drunks do have some funny stories along with "mostly" sad ones. But here's one for you. Went out to pub, had 6 glasses of wine, not bad for me, because the horrible hangovers are not worth it. AND I get waay more drunk on less. Anyway, I was browsing the Amazon Book site trying to decide which one to download to my kindle. (I love my kindle). So, after 6 wines, I didn't even remember downloading anything. When Rich got on the computer in the AM he said, Why did you download a book about George Bush??
I said, "Waaaa?" Well, It's a good thing it was a book that Rich wanted to read or I would have been screwed.
Moral of the story, don't make hasty dicisions under the influence.
Like I said, don't know at what speed or when just trying to chill, take the nal EVERY time & "try" to forget about it. I only hope it does it's magic for the bingers.
Thanks for listening,
Alway, Jane

Oh Jane, you're so sweet.... your little story about the kindle hit home to a point (since I love mine and and take it traveling with me)...I've been doing very well as you know, very controlled and such. and so.....

I was traveling this past week to Florida.... had a rocking set of business meetings, had really good post meeting me and two folks that work with me (one guy, one gal) went to a really nice dinner, had one glass of wine each, and then just walked around this nice downtown area for a while... then we ended up going to this famous Irish pub near the hotel I was staying. We all three went to the same college (different years) and got going telling all these all stories about each of our exploits while there and stuff, and I got in one of those moods losing track of the drinks and having a really fun time. Me and the guy in particular have been working together for a lot of years and have a LOT in common. (we don't live in the same town though.) Lets just say at the end of the evening I said some things to him that were not so appropriate and had they been acted upon I would have been in some trouble. In any case, they weren't, and I didn't but it was not good... purely the wine talking. The sad thing is that I've found myself in that situation before (with others AND him) and I was really hoping it wouldn't happen again. Good news was this time I didn't pretend like nothing happened and we talked about it before the trip was over, why it happens in particular between us and how to avoid it in the future. At least I felt mature about that and didn't anguish too much. Again, very successful trip otherwise, and no troubles with drinking too much any other day.

And to Jane I Apologize for hijacking you but I feel a connection with you and also felt a need to vent so I hope you will accept my request for forgiveness.

Hey IL, I don't consider that "highjacking". I do not believe in it. I know others can be offended but I am not. People need to talk & get it out & it does'nt matter how just that it comes out. I feel a connection to you also. Where AL is concerned BTDT says a whole mouth-full. We can all relate to the embarrasment & everything else that goes with it. I think I mentioned before that I really think it is because most of us are so very sensitive to our emotions that we handle our negative emotions thru Al. Then we become addicted to the great feeling of numbness it gives. By the time we even realize what has happened to us. We get "caught up" in it. And it is extremely difficult to keep a positive outlook when trying to climb out from the bottom of the barrel, so to speak.
I can sort of laugh about the George Bush book, WTF?? Sober, that would never happen. At least Rich will read it.
And good for you for confronting the snafu of your nite out. Fortunate that your friend understood. Good feeling to have more control ha? ; ) I have noticed a huge difference also, just that human nature wants to remember the no so good times. Keep trying to point my nose in the right direction when I realize that I'm thinking on a negative. Great to talk to you. As you might know I'm a Gemini & cannot shut up....that's what my Husband says anyway.
Hugs & many well wishes,
JANE

Tonight I just took 100mg. of nal. Want to see if it makes a difference. Going to meet Rich at the local steak house down the road a piece. Took the nal about 1hr. ago. going to wait 2hrs.. Feeling a little tired. Never felt that on the 50mgs.. Will let ya'll know how it pans out.
Always, Jane

I look forward to hearing (or reading!) about the results Jane.

Hi the saga continues.I am now at home. Met Rick at local.Took a double shot of Na. My first time trying 100mgs. Noticed no change. Yet. Chardonnay tasted pretty much the same. Went down with a delightfully warm feeling in my belly. I'm sure I'll need to try the 100 a few more times before noticing a change. Anyway, had 4 glasses of Chard. at pub. The girl that is on Weds. nites is not a favorite of Rich. They had a tiff a few yrs. back. I thought it was over & done with but, she has carried a grudge. Then he got pissed at her less-than-friendly-attitude, & left. Me...holding the bag. I'm okay with it now. However, being the ONLY place in this 1 horse town to get a half-way decent meal,I waited for the pizza. So... Rich had left. And.......there is also a pkg. store right across the street from the local...I stopped for 4 small wines. These come in a 4 pk. & are about what I would call less than 1 glass. Anyway, I am having my 5th glass. Bad for me, but better than before tsm.. Before tsm, I would have gotten a large bottle of wine. Then attempt to drink it before dawn. Not in the mood at the moment. Although, I most likely finish the small bottles I purchased, something is different. Yet, when I was at the pub, something was different there also. I am trying to put together how 100 may be better for me, than 50. Like I said, don't know yet. Will keep ya'll up to date. Just think it may be important to report any feelings that may arise while on 100.
Not to change subjects but,...We ALL KNOW how obnoxious drunks are when they are well..drunk. There was a couple on the other side ofthe bar that were really distracting. It is certaintly an eye-opener to see someone else. Especially when we can relate,. But.. I do not know these people personaly or I would love to bring up TSM.. Sadly, some people are not ready to admit they have a problem. So, I commend all who "FESS-UP". Even me & I fess up too.
Okay, not used to massive amounts of Al anymore.. Saga continued til tomorrow, or after family holiday.
All have a safe one. Love To All
JANE0