Hi Lorraine, UKblond and generic

Lorraine, you are right that it is up to me to sort myself out. I just find it so very hard...But I know I have to do it for my kids. I think i'll start one small step at the time. Recently I've been having often some wine in the morning, even before work (basically I'd feel really down and start crying, mu Dad will be 'Why are you crying? You have nothing to be upset abt etc. and i'd go for the wine to cheer up). This is the first thing that has absolutely to stop!

UKblond, at the moment AF days seem impossible, but I will try like you say to reduce units. I've enlisted my daughters help - to remind my I have to drink less; talked to her this morning. She is only 11, but is the only person i have close by to encourage me. And am going to start keeping diary again as of today.

Generic, I hope Nal starts working for me too. And I'll try to use some of the tactics you suggest to help me reduce units. I hope Nal will help like you say.

As for the exercise - I work full time and am a single mum. So I am ususally out of the house before 8 am with 2 kids to take to bus stop/ child minder So going out for a run is out of the question. But I can do say 10 min of yoga each morning at home.

At the moment I feel I need someone to believe in me and that TSM will help! And the people at Substance abuse place definitely don't!

I just have to keep trying!