You are doing great! I can't wait to get to the point you are at! You are obviously slowing down. That is more than a glimpse my friend!!!

You rock!!!!!

WTE,

I just wish I could be there to hug you - it's amazing you haven't drowned yourself into a coma after all this. I'm trying not to cry as I type this. In fact, I've spent the last few days trying desperately to catch up on the posts here, and have been moved to tears many times. I feel closer to all of you than to my own family. When you feel pain, I feel pain. When you rejoice, so do I. What an incredibly wonderful group of people! I feel so blessed to be part of this community. I've got SO much to do right now, but haven't been able to pull myself away from here. My guilt is quickly replaced by gratitude when I realize that I am witnessing what I truly believe will be the most life changing and rewarding period of my life - a real miracle! Not just the TSM part, but the magnitude of emotion that I'm fortunate enough to experience throughout the transformation. I am already forever changed, and I owe so much of that to all of you.

Hang in there WTE - you are one of the strongest people I know, and words cannot express the level of my admiration. Please don't feel so alone - we all love you.

WTE ;That was indeed a heavy load , painful stuff .
As you know the brilliant news is your new reactions to it all , grief for the dear cat and letting go of people and situations . Radical , really transformative but you're moving into a new space with new powers . i'm very happy for you .
It works !

Krazy Kris , Hi there , I'm with all you said there about the value of the community .

Celebrate

Underneath all of the unpleasant stuff is the undeniable evidence that TSM is working for you. It may be of little consolation to you at this minute, but that fact will be the key to your ultimate happiness. I TOTALLY related to putting down your cat. I had to put my German Shepherd, Sam down a few years ago and it was the hardest thing I have ever done. I had her for 12 years and she was my constant companion. In a way, it was even worse than when my best friend, my dad, died in October. I know that sounds preposterous, but I played no role in my dad's death. But with Sam, they gave me the choice to bring her back home and feed her human food, in hopes that she would eat, as she hadn't been eating when I took her in. They said she would almost certainly die a painful, slow death within a week or so (she had a huge cancerous growth in her stomach), so I made the decision to have her put down on the spot. As soon as I got home to our empty yard with all of her toys still sitting there, I agonized that she could have still been there with me for at least a few more days. In any event, I knew I did the right thing but it was of zero consolation at that moment. So, I'm feeling your pain over here in MN. Maybe you should run out and get a kitten right away to take your mind off it. Wishing you the best.

xoxo

Nick

It's good to know you trust us to share your grief. Losing a pet even for those of us with children, is one of the most heart wrenching experiences we can have. You showed selflessness and love by putting him down instead of allowing him to suffer. Be good to yourself.

HI WTE
make no apology- loosing a loved pet- especially when you have had to make the decision is incredibly hard. I have kids- 2 young adult daughters and my faithful cat has recently been diagnosed with leukemia and cat aids. He too has seen me through some tough times- in fact he inititially took against my 2nd husband when he met him,I should have paid attention when he(the cat!) symbolically presented me with a rat the first time that same gentleman stayed over. At some point fairly soon i will have to make the same decision as you.
i was so sorry that you had to do all that on your own. (indeed without even your old friend AL to rely on for comfort!) I am lucky even though i don't have a partner and my kids are away,when it happens i have a couple of close GF"s who will be with me. It sounds like TSM is causing you to have to re-evaluate so many things just now. You come across as a strong tough woman but speaking as someone who is also seen as strong- sometimes it would be nice not to have to be- or not to have had so much practice having to be tough and strong!

WTE, it's Monday morning and just reading this. So sorry for your loss, I can't even imagine how you must feel. There really are no words. Although I am married, I know only too well what it is like to feel all alone in the world except for this man. It can be a very scary place to be and it's no fun.
Know you are in my thoughts! Glad you were able to post here and hope it helps a bit to know that there are those of us here who really do care how you feel.

OH WTE !

I just love your drinking glasss in that photo , you've a great deal of taste I see !!
I just didn't know what you meant when you said "Elfern glass " last week .
Well , as I said i'd slipped on reading all posts and today I find this gem !
hope you're a bit better .
Cheers m' dears

You are my hero!

You have gone through so much, and still are and are doing so amazing with TSM. With everything you have gone through just in the last week, you could have drowned yourself in a case of wine, or even vodka, but you didn't. You even had three weeks off from the acrobatics in Mammoth!

I know things are tough right now, but they will get better. Look back on this time as a positive in that you handled like an ace!

I hope you are proud of yourself, because I know I am! You are one of the strongest people I know. You are amazing!!!

Way to go WTE - I'm SO happy for you! Under 50 units or not, it's clear you're getting there. Congrats!