I ordered them at Trustmeds.net, but it was a very expensive site. Allday Pharmacy, who does ship to the UK, does not ship to the Netherlands so I pay the full prize. So maybe I should consider getting a part shipped to the UK, pay someone there and let them be sent to Holland from there...

Oh and btw, I went sailing to England with a sailing contest, which was very nice. However, I took the toilet bag with me and was out of Nal after two days... So in the end I ended up drinking without. How I regret this! I went on a bender which stopped two days later when I got home. Now back to my fixed schedule...

Glad to hear you are back on schedule.

I pondered recently the thought about my own Nal use. I am nowhere near cured, but I am a far greater place and control than where I was a year ago. Still getting better. I just have 20 plus years of engrained habits to keep trying to break.

My thought was, "I WILL NEVER DRINK WITHOUT NAL AGAIN". Even if I can't get to the "accepted healthy levels" of social drinking, I feel so much better now where I am at.

How do you mean 'even if I can get at accepted levels of social drinking, without Naltrexone?

When I say healthy drinking levels, I refer to, "No more than 4 drinks per day or 14 per week". Generally the levels your Doc will state is normal/healthy. If I can't get there, but maybe can get to 30, I'm still planning on taking the Nal before I drink. If after a year I find I can only get down to 60 per week, not 30 per week, I'm still planning on taking the Nal. Definitely, not without Naltrexone. Nal has me in a much better place right now. It is still in my plan for the near and distant future.

Thanks for the info. Yes indeed, Trustmeds.net is really expensive: €5.28 per pill, with modest discounts for bulk purchases. Let us know if you find a better source to Germany or the Netherlands.

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I think we have to team up in the future with somebody from the UK who can order for much cheaper and let it be sent to Holland and pay forward Now find somebody who wants to do that for a complete stranger...

But anyhow, wanted to give an update. I start to experience a lot of stress which causes me to have panic attacks, get nauseous and gag/throw up in the end (without actually throwing up) to get rid of the stress in my throat. Besides that, I am still sleeping very bad and my units have not really gone down yet... These number cannot be good in the long haul for my health (1,5 bottle per day sometimes...)

I know that anxiety can also come from alcohol, so maybe a few AF days would be a good idea.

Hi all,

It is not going well with my stress levels. I don't sleep at all anymore, I have had three AF's in a row but my stress and alertness are killing me. I am thinking of taking a holiday, because I cannot relax anymore, also not with alcohol, hence the AF's. I am proud though that I did them, but I am currently taking oxazepam because of all the panic attacks. These keep me from enjoying my daily activities and life and I don't like that.

Does anyone here have experience with panic attacks?

Yes, I have them and so does at least one other poster here.

Mostly I just rough through them. Sometimes I take a double dose of Advil -- it lowers blood pressure, creating a fake sense of low energy without sleepiness, and that sort of simulates calm.

The other poster mentioned a tea called Sleepytime, one of the herbal teas designed for evening use. I suppose it works in much the same way.

Neither of these will put much of a dent in a full-blown "paralyzed on the floor" panic attack, but they can take the edge off of smaller ones.

Hi Melissa,

Thanks for the tips. I already have Sleepytime tea and do not take things like Advil, but will definitely try and find new ways to keep my anxiety under control. Last night I slept from 8PM (because I was so tired) untill midnight and after that didn't sleep anymore the whole night... Had brainzaps as if I was taking antidepressants, such a weird experience! Told my mother that I want to start TSM and that I want to ask for Naltrexone at my GP, as if I need it to keep the cravings down... Felt horrible today and had trembles from tiredness, so took a benzo and that makes me survive today.