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Location: Florida
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End of Month 8 and end of week 35. No cravings this week. I have had some disturbing thoughts. I feel I am not the same person any more. Am I no longer an alcoholic? Answer; I am not an alcoholic any longer. But what concerns me is that we have been meddling with the central reward system of our brains and for a very good cause... our de-addiction. It worked for me and for that I am very grateful. But has there been another cost that we were not aware of? Have other entrained habits good and bad been extinguished as well? Do we need to relearn all of the good habits all over again? Or have the decades of alcoholism masked the changes in my personality that I could never see before? Maybe it's a combination of the two. But I suspect that it's more a product of the Naltrexone, since I have been abstinent before in recent years before TSM and didn't have these personality differences. Regardless, I feel that I must take an inventory (not a fearless moral one, just a regular inventory) of all the things I want to be and practice them again and again until they become part of me again. Since, I spend most my weeks, alcohol-free and Naltrexone-free, this should be something I can accomplish. I wonder if others have experienced the same effects. Cute graphs:   Bob
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Code: Pre-TSM~54u/Wk
Wk1-52:40,42,39,28,33,33,43,40,36,30,34,30,30║30,38,13,25,4,22,12,6,9,5,9,3,5║6,6,5,4,9,6,0,9,2,2,5,4,4║3,4,5,3,4,2,6,2,6,4,8,2,2u
W53-91: 4, 2, 2, 2, 3, 2, 1, 5, 4,17, 0, 0, 0║ 3, 0, 3, 0,3, 0, 2,0,0,0,0,0,0║0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,0u
"Cured" @ Week 21 (5 Months), Current Week: 97 (23rd Month)
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