Holy crap EL, that's horrible with the subway. You did brilliantly not drinking after that... choosing to work through it and not just blot it out, wow! Bummer about Tuesday, but making mistakes is just part of being human and you've chosen to learn from it. FWIW, over the period I've been loitering here I've noticed you "getting there" .

Hi EL,

Holy cow, how awful about that man on the subway. You should be very proud of yourself for not drinking after that happened. I'm so inspired by your numbers. You are doing great! The cure is just around the corner for you and all of us I'm hoping.

I hope also that you are liking your new job and its less of a burden on you now. Let me know how you are doing with all of it.

Best wishes,

Hi EL

Well done on your progress! It's great that you can often only take 25mg and still limit your intake. Try not to feel bad about the one night not taking nal. It was still a better outcome than pre-TSM. I can relate to the need to limit drinking during the week when you can't sleep in or nap. On my recent holidays it was easier to get away with drinking more because I could sleep in and/or nap during the day. Now it's back to reality I can only do that in the weekends.

That subway accident sounds awful!

Have a great weekend.
Cheers
Sticky

Haya EL!!!

What's up, haven't heard from ya in awhile?

Zip

Hi all, sorry to be so absent again! Very busy at work, professionally outside of work with my own business, and quite a few social activities this past week as well. I did -all right - this week, not great. Weekly total of 19, which is high for me these days. I did what I do best, which is get too excited the ngiht BEFORE a big event, and had 8 drinks and then was hungover on saturday for the big event. I did still enjoy myself, but felt very tired and didn't drink much at all. In a way maybe I set myself up for this, because I was worried about the big event being a drinking disaster itself? I'm not sure. I am going through a lot of professional stress right now - including having to lie about taking time off to take interviews and exams for other jobs. Basically this week is going to be insane. I will be working in one capacity or another from about 8-9am to 12 midnight every day. UGH. Sorry if I don't post much during this week then...!!

Thanks for checking in Electra as you have been missed.

Talk about going from zero to ninety MPH!!!! You're flying now!!! I am happy for you!

I got a promotion and the powers that be are sending me up to Prudhoe Bay to produce!!!!!
Get this: No booze is allowed in Prudhoe Bay! I could be up there 3 to 8 weeks.

I'll keep everyone posted here.

Wishing you a very successful week ahead.

Just don't be a stranger,

Ketchikan1

El - if there's any silver lining (and there doesn't have to be) in the heavy work load is there's no time to drink! Thanks for the support you've been giving me and others even as you're working your brains out. I hope a great next job is just around the corner.

Wow, you are on a roll! How exciting and really good to hear, I need some good news this morning. Really over did it this weekend and afraid I'm in for a rough week. I shouldn't think this way, setting myself up for a tough one, I'm going to think positive and make it a good week instead.

Zip

It's interesting, I'm looking at my numbers here over the months and am oddly disappointed by them. I think part of it is that I wasn't counting properly the first couple of months (so I actually had more drinks), but I think also that there hasn't been a huge outward trend OBJECTIVELY in my drinking. And yet I feel that subjectively my experience with alcohol and its place in my life are completely different now. I've gone from bingeing 3 times a week to sometimes drinking 6 times a week but only bingeing maybe once every 2-3 weeks - and then the "binge" is 8 drinks tops, not like the 20 of yore. I no longer black out and spend the night in the toilet or on the coach fully clothed. My boyfriend no longer worries about me roaming around bars by myself, and we almost never get into arguments about staying out "for just one more drink" anymore. I no longer think drinking is the most fun thing I can do - there are many other things that I get excited about. And ultimately, I just feel less craving, both to start drinking (a number of times recently I've been entirely ambivalent about drinking, and it was only once i had a drink that I remembered that I actually liked drinking sometimes!!) and to keep drinking and get drunk. The latter does happen, don't get me wrong, but the harm is greatly reduced and the frequency is much less. I no longer am afraid that I'll overdo it the night before a job interview or big exam or something like that. It's like the rational part of my brain that I was always missing when drinking just got turned back on. I might choose to get drunk sometimes, but at least I"m making a choice. That's my rambling for today before starting on a 15 hour work day

Right on EL, I really needed this objectivity this morning, THANK YOU!!! I have overdun it the past couple of days and feeling a bit blue today.

Onward, have to get honest onto spilling my guts.

Have a great one!

Zip