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plantpr0 · **Joined:** Mon Mar 31, 2014 11:06 am **Posts:** 353

Well done, stay the course.

all41 · **Posted:** Wed Dec 17, 2014 9:16 am

Started the week with back to back AF days, haven't done that since June........almost forgot what that kind of reality check feels like.

To be perfectly honest, it felt kind of good

I could still sense the "craving buildup" that usually follows my AF days but I could tell it was diminished. Pre-TSM that craving buildup would have scored an 8 or 9, but I'd say it never got higher than a 5 on these AF days. I want to keep drinking enough to reach the point of extinction but at the same time I'm want to get used to the feeling of not being under the influence all the time. If drinking less means it takes a little more time than just "drinking as I normally would" that's OK, I'll be patient.

Bottom line is I can discern that somewhere in the core of my brain TSM is working, and that is so encouraging. From what I have experienced so far I feel like all I have to do is follow the rule. If I do that, there's no stopping it. Drinking a little more or less won't matter in the long run, it will happen regardless.

Cheeto · **Joined:** Thu Oct 16, 2014 12:40 pm **Posts:** 510

all41 wrote:

I could still sense the "craving buildup" that usually follows my AF days but I could tell it was diminished. Pre-TSM that craving buildup would have scored an 8 or 9, but I'd say it never got higher than a 5 on these AF days. I want to keep drinking enough to reach the point of extinction but at the same time I'm want to get used to the feeling of not being under the influence all the time. If drinking means it takes a little more time than just "drinking as I normally would" that's OK, I'll be patient.

all41, I have just had 2 AF days in a row and I am like you still having the cravings but in my mind I also think I should take Nal+Drink more for the Nal to rewire my brain.

plantpr0 · **Joined:** Mon Mar 31, 2014 11:06 am **Posts:** 353

Very nice all41. You got your stride and I'm sure you'll finish strong. Applause.

melissa1928 · **Joined:** Sun Oct 20, 2013 12:57 pm **Posts:** 897

I can see why it's discouraging to look at the numbers, but the inner changes are good tells also. I'm glad you have a positive attitude about this being a process. You hang in there, and the changes will keep happening.

all41 · **Posted:** Sun Dec 21, 2014 12:47 pm

I guess that's what you call an extinction burst???

Unfortunately nearly half of last weeks units were from last night :evil:

I feel like I broke through some kind of barrier last week, detox maybe. I've been thinking that with this gradual TSM detox that at some point you're IN and then at some point you're OUT.

nigelr · **Joined:** Sun Oct 12, 2014 3:48 am **Posts:** 163

Looking good. I broke my 2 day AF stint last night and over did it a bit. For me the cravings aren't ever that bad, it's just when I'm drinking that I lose control.

Are you going to plan af days each week now?

all41 · **Posted:** Tue Dec 23, 2014 10:33 am

I'm about to start that weight management program, so yes, that will be a strong motivator for scheduling AF or near AF days.

all41 · **Posted:** Sun Dec 28, 2014 2:41 pm

Well, Christmas Eve, Christmas, and a lot of time away from work, all I can say is I was in MUCH WORSE shape a year ago

Guapo · **Joined:** Fri May 09, 2014 10:08 am **Posts:** 438

That all looks very encouraging, keep at it!

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