Inspired,

Glad you are finding the necessary support here. There is no need to label yourself to benefit from using TSM. People who don't struggle with managing their alcohol intake just don't understand. Me stopping myself is something I'm not capable of by myself. The Nal helps so much and I think Jim is right!!

Jim,

I couldn't agree more. I definitely think this is an extinction burst. My interest in alcohol has dropped quickly the past couple of days. I'm not yet at the guardrail convention state yet But, I'm hoping to get there eventually. I definitely think I had to go through that to get here. I'm glad you've got folks helping you out with the meds and you don't feel like you've slid much. It would be a shame to lose the progress you've made. It sounds like your doctor and pharmacy were the bad, bad ones.

Hang in there, BTDT

Thanks all!

I'm sticking with the program. I shall overcome. I hate the shame.

virtual (((HUGS))) to you all.

39 units! that's awesome! Extinction burst! can't wait to see what happens next. Nothing wrong with wanting to drink normally. Nothing wrong at all. Some would laugh at this and say that we are delusional. no such luck. We are normal people who drink too much it doesn't matter if you call yourself an alcoholic in TSM. No shaming or maiming here! that's the beauty of it! keep rockin BTDT

Thanks Joe - I feel like I'm on the right path. I will rock on for sure.

Inspired - Shame is not allowed on this board It sucks to have to deal with this and we are trying to do better with TSM.

BTDT

Hi all,

Thank you everyone for your tremendous support!! This has certainly been a rocky week. I am recovering today from another binge so I'm feeling kind of crappy. It's hard to be optimistic when I feel so nasty but if I take a step back there are many good things to report:

> I stocked up with food and drink before I started so I stayed out of the car and kept everyone safe
> I stayed amazingly lucid and didn't have any regrettable behaviors.
> My binges are getting shorter. In the past, I could go on for 3-4 days. My past two have been < 24 hrs.
> I'm consuming less each time 32 then 26 then 23...
> I don't feel as ill as I have in the past so the hangovers aren't quite as bad.

I guess this is progress creeping in slowly. But, I'm still desperately in need of some AF days.

Last week I reported my numbers incorrectly. I realized that I'd only counted 6 days and when I add the 7th I was up to 44 units. So far this week I'm already up to 49 but that's what happens when you binge twice in one week Let's hope I scored some big extinction points for all this effort. I'll post final numbers on Wednesday. Here's hoping for a lighter week, next week

Wishing everyone the best!! BTDT

I think maybe I'm turning a corner, I got alldaychemist.com brand and it doesn't seem to give me headaches. I took one at 3ish and had 1/2 glass of white wine while I was making turkey (Canadian Thanksgiving), then got bad news that my dad was sick, was frantic... worried I might over do it so I took another before I had wine with dinner. Happily 'vacu-vinned' the wine, totally in control. YAY!

Good luck and many blessings to all!

Hi all,

I haven't been on the board much this week. Overall, this week has been a great improvement over last.

I've had a couple of short binges (which I define as starting one day and rolling into the next) but the units were only 15 and 20. So if you add that to my 3 unit day, I've only had 38 units this week!! I haven't seen a number that low since my honeymoon ended. My other binges over the past several weeks have been 32, 26 and 23 - so I'm definitely heading in the right direction. The keep getting shorter with fewer units each time. The hangovers haven't been as bad either. Progress is creeping in slowly. I'm still impatient though.

In order to avoid any driving, I've kept a ready supply of wine in the house. In the past, I couldn't do that because if it was there I would drink it until I passed out, blacked out, etc. Now, I can take what I want and go to bed when I'm done. I can leave half of a bottle in the fridge and not feel compelled to drink it. And the best part is I don't have to worry about being tempted to get in the car.

I want to keep my units at 38 for the week so I'm planning on the next 2 days AF, wish me luck. Tonight should be easy because I'm not feeling 100% but tomorrow will be a bit more of a challenge. At almost 8 weeks in, I think I'm ready to give it a go!!

Wishing all of you the best, BTDT

YOU can do it!!!

XXX

BTDT, it's funny what you say about not keeping extra alcohol in the house before TSM because you would drink it. I did the same thing. I only bought what I thought I would drink for the night. Problems always arose when I miscalculated. If I bought to much I'd drink all of it and have to call in sick to work the next day. If I didn't buy enough, I'd end up driving drunk to the store to get more.

Now, I have a bunch of half drunken bottles at home and I'm not scared to stock up because I'm pretty sure I won't try to drink everything all at once.

Hi all,

So I did great with my first AF night. The second didn't happen I have to admit, I think I am losing faith in TSM but perhaps 8 weeks isn't enough time to know whether it will really work. My problem is that I am such a good girl that I want to do the right thing. I'm worried that TSM is failing me and I should be rethinking the abstinence route. I just wish this route worked!! So my 8th week ended at 48 units. Am I wrong to doubt TSM or do I need to give it more time to kick in? I don't want to give up after my 8 weeks in....

The folks on this board are great! BTDT