WaitingToExhale wrote:
WEEK 9:
Fatigue continues and I have once again become a professional napper. Again, I can deal with it easier knowing that it will soon fade.
I am a bit surprised to see the numbers down more than I thought they would be. I continue to have some of those "don't really want more" experiences, although they are sporadic. Me too, but I still manage to drink
On the other hand, I had numerous opportunities this week to hit the drinking early and took the Nal before 9:00Am every day but one this week. Again, my downfall is that vodka in the house and bloody marys.There I am, I am NOT BUYING VODCA! That's the one that really gets me in the middle of the night, sounds like it's your am friend. I know, I am guilty of buying what I like too, Right now the white wine is not really calling to me (of course I am still drinking it!) But I bought some red wine and I could care less about opening that. Maybe we should stock up on Jagermeister (sp), UHG! Oh so my way around not liking my chardonnay, was to buy some champagne, and let me tell you, I love champagne, morning noon and night. ONLY ONE BOTTLE THOUGH!
I noticed I drink much less when I am out, but about the same when I am home. I'm not sure what that means. That I should go out more? =)[color=#008080]Yes me too, I used to always have my "stash" with me and I realized today I was traveling dry, and I was way ok with that, This is surely good progress.
All nausea is gone and I am able to take 50mg even on only a cup of coffee now. A big change as well from the first time around.
And the mysterious sweet tooth still rears it's head from time to time. This is very odd for me as I have never been a sweet food person with the exception of a small bite here or there. I dreamt of a candy bar the other night.. HA!ME TOO! I have real sweet cravings, although I have not decreased the AL consumption, so that is not where the cravings are coming from. Hummmm......you think it may be the nal? And I have been craving Carbs.
The night sweats are back for some reason. Unsure if this is Nal related or simply less booze and a touch of withdrawal. They aren't intense enough to seriously disrupt sleep, but are uncomfortable. The same with odd dreams - nothing awful, but stronger impressions when I awake and at times feeling unsettled by them.
I want so badly to feel like I could have an AF day, but try to just keep that in the back of my mind for later. Other than on Topa months ago and having a few, I have not been AF for 20 something years. Trying hard to have patience and not force and not over think it as I just re-start.Oh, I so know what you mean! I did get 30 + AF days in this year and it was great. But the recent one day I had, was such a victory. It's is so easy when it is, Do not know why it is so difficult for us, we are so bright, strong minded, maybe it is just our little secret with oursleves, kind of like I can not imagine AL (wine) has ANY calories.
Again, I don't feel like I lost all progress, but perhaps just a touch. I maintain a high level of confidence in this working and the tiny spots in which I feel a shift propel me forward. That evening at the Happy Hour and leaving those drinks has really kept me feeling confident that this is my answer!
On to Week 10!
Oh I tried to color my writing green but the colors on this forum are not very bright, sorry if this is hard to read. Don't mean to talk about me, just really wanted to share with you and let you know how similar I feel, we can do it and thanks so much for your support, you are a dear forum friend!
HEARTS TO YOU!
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Luckily, that hasn't happened in a long time now. I think I just have that guilt over "wasting" it - I feel really bad when I have to throw out food too. Too bad you can't get a "doggie glass" to take leftovers home! 
Glad you're seeing some positive changes - it really keeps the motivation going.
