Well, I decided it was time to go for an AF day. It has been while. I was worried about withdrawal and/or not being able to sleep. I stumbled across this vitamin regiment for alcoholics. When I went to rehab, they gave me vitamin B1 the first couple of days, so I thought I'd give it a go and I read somewhere on this Site that it worked for someone else.
http://www.doctoryourself.com/alcoholism.htmlI've taken the vitamins for a week now and I do feel good. The best news is that I had an AF day on Wednesday with no problems. I didn't sleep great, but that was the worst of it. I got through the next day until the late evening without drinking before giving in. Truthfully, I wasn't really gripping the second night and with a little effort, I could have done 2.
I have absolutely no doubt that my brain has been positively changed close to, "normal". And to answer Lou's last post on my thread, even if this is the best it gets, it's miles better than before.
I also went to a wedding with my family on Saturday night, and to me, this is one of the greatest gifts of NAL. I drank, had wine, made toasts, and frankly, probably had more than I should have. But I was in total control. I chose to avoid vodka and stayed mainly to lite beer. I would pause for a while, turn down drinks and have some water to pace myself. I wasn't fighting my inner beast to avoid spiraling out if control. My wife wanted to leave a bit early, and I know it was because she was worried about my past exploits. But she admitted that I was fine, had not embarrassed her at all.
So it is all good news.
I should add that I am exercising every day, losing a little weight. I am off on a month long vacation starting Wednesday. The plan is to go to the lite beer and force some will on my bad habit.
In reading everything else on this Site, I do want to state for the record, that during this process, I have not drank without NAL ever on purpose. I did once, by accident. I thought I had taken it, and then saw the pill on my counter the next morning. Not to judge anyone, but I do think that you MUST commit to taking NAL every single time you drink, or don't bother with this method.
I hope my thread has offered hope to others. The Problem is now within my power to fix. I am not, 'powerless' to alcohol like I once was. It is up to me, now.
I hope everyone is well.